Fanny's

一個人流浪;

2010-10-09T21:16:00.000+08:00

没人了解
才选择隔绝这世界
有点疲倦
已决裂的信念
白色球鞋
走不回喧闹的海边
月光营火
照亮许多笑脸~
疯狂画面
停留在眼前
默契却
渐行渐远
我们约好闯荡的那片天
我一个人向前,

我流浪在拥挤的从前
复习一页页黑白的空荡夏天
呆坐在热闹的路边
啤酒没变甜
却少了傻的很认真的心愿
我流浪在孤单的边缘
怀念挥霍著笑声的耀眼蓝天
听著那熟悉的音乐
只剩下琴弦
希望让时间回到误解那天
能有机会说声抱歉 ;

曾經，希望自己是啞巴，就好了。

2010-10-02T15:24:00.001+08:00

曾經，希望自己是啞巴，就好了。
但是，一旦成為啞巴，又渴望學會說話，哪怕口齒不清也沒關係...
寧願自己用寫的
也害怕聽到自己的聲音
害怕從自己從口中講出來的話   讓別人聽不懂...
也曾經被嘲笑過,
也認為總有一天   這缺點 , 會成為被攻擊的把柄,
很害怕自己的聲音,
有一個想法   總是閃過我的心頭直到今天才被我正視,
〝假如我是啞巴就好了〞
這樣就不會聽到自己的聲音,
就不用怕別人學我講話的聲音,
也不用學會退縮...
但是啊...一旦成為啞巴,
也會被嘲笑,
人的身上, 有了很明顯的缺陷,
總是會被莫名的放大,
也會被拿來嘲笑,
有人覺得有趣 ,但是當事人並不這麼想,
為什麼他們就不想想,
要是換成是你被嘲笑,你會怎樣?

我覺得我真的不太適合講話,
不是講錯話,
就是句點王,
不然就是話太多,
是我太在意別人嗎？
我真希望我是善於言談的人,
真的認識我的人,
應該可以從我的眼神中,
看出一絲絲的空洞與寂寞,
有時候真的想獨自躲在牆角畫圈圈,
你們看到的只是強顏歡笑,
五月天的"你不是真正的快樂"唱出了我的心聲,
我應該把自己武裝起來嗎,
我禁得起些什麼呢?
我幫別人做的一切,
值得嗎？

還是到頭來是白忙一場,
我真是個受不了打擊的草莓,
一點點小事我都可以難過一星期以上,
或許是因為我這樣,
我交不到朋友,
沒人想跟我說話,
孤獨一點一滴的侵蝕我的心靈,
殘缺不全的心靈,
有時候真希望我是啞巴與聾子與瞎子,
看不到是非,
聽不到長短,
說不出對錯,
真的,
有時殘缺不全比身心健全更快樂.......................

當個啞巴會不會比較好...

2010-09-30T20:55:00.001+08:00

好不容易才挽回一點的友情
在這一刻
又再次的毀滅
我不知道該如何是好
徬徨是我現在的心情
難過是我內心的感受
我到底該怎麼做...

我一直以來
都在想著
我那麼的惹人厭
最終所吐出的話
都是别人所不願聽的
那我是不是變成啞巴後
這一切的問題都可以解決
至少
這樣少了些紛爭...

我真的手足無措
因為我不知該怎麼繼續挽回這份情誼
我不知道該怎麼繼續下去
我害怕
我退縮
真的好想就此消失
這樣就不會有人痛苦了...

既然我的嘴巴
只會說出一些他們不喜歡聽的話
那我希望自己可以變成啞巴
這個世界少了我的聲音
也不會有太大的差別的...

FML.

When one is better than 2. :)

2010-09-28T21:39:00.001+08:00

We're all in this alone.

WEE!
I doodled again! LOL.
Although this have nothing to do with my post today. :B
Took 2 hours this time !
EPIC FAIL drawing the guy. LOL.
Anws, the girl looks like me right!
NERD! :P

LJS today with JV.
Thanks for teaching me SS!
I know you like the panda sticker. HAHA. :P
Went home and chionged 4 topics in 3 hours.
Great sense of achievement! xDD

OHYA.
I WANT TO COMPLAIN~~~~~~~~~~~~~~!
Stupid Jonathan kicked my bag then PLUCK OFF my handle for my plastic bag!
Makes me have a hard time bringing my books home!
STUPID RETARD FLASHER! (That's his new name. :) ) LOL.

Then Tiffany show me Eugene-Expression.
HAHA!
FUNNY FUNNY! xDD

Suddenly I'm addicted to studying. o_o
Random. LOL.
Ciaos~

Love me Love my Teddy Bear;

2010-09-26T22:33:00.000+08:00

"There's just something about a Teddy Bear that's impossible to explain. When you hold one in your arms, you get a feeling of love, comfort and security. It's almost supernatural."

I've been doodling the above peeks for 3 hours. -.- (Inspired by tumblr)
I could spend the time studying!
Oh well~
And I use 'Paint' okay!
Actually I could have done it within 1 hour, but my comp doesn't likes me, it auto shuts by itself for 3 effing times. -.-
What can I say?
FML.
I painsakely drew everything with my mouse as I don't have a tablet.
Imagine outlining it, colouring it with clicks. T_T
I'm gonna effing kill those ppl who steals the image or comments that it is ugly.
So pro draw yourself lah! LOL! If not, DIAM! :)
And I guess I will only post when I've time to doodle. :B
So I can link doodles with my everyday life!
HAHA. Then I will draw myself and ppl in my life!
Then I will make myself looks chio, sweet and cute and I shall make others look fugly! LOL!
k back to topic,
Studied 4 to 5 hours in total today.
Finish 3 chapters.
I seriously cannot believe I'm studying,
I've NEVER study for exams lor, only read through. :X
I will go bang wall and die if I cannot get 2As, 3Bs and 1C!
Mummy promise me she will get me a laptop if I get 2As, 3Bs and 1C, PINK ONE! O.M.G!
LALALA.
I'm so gonna get a camera soon,
for Japan trip♥!
Ciaos. :B

Shopping is the best cure. :B

2010-09-25T22:48:00.001+08:00

I'm out shopping when exam is just in 1 weeks' time. OOPS! :X
But I did study okay!
Governance in SG + Matrices today.
Tmr shall chiong Chem & Physics. :X
I spent $24.90 on a cake layered skirt, $9.90 for a tank top, $9.90 for a shorts, $15.90 for a Physics O level book, $6.95 for a Chem O level notes, $13++ on my sis' present, $5 on 2 horoscope books, $4.50 for stockings, $1.95 for a dark purple ZIG marker, $2.50 for Korea stickers, $3.90 for letterpad from ArtBox.
SHIOK TTM! :DD (Because I weren't the one paying except for the $13 bucks. :B)
I still have a long long list of things I want to buy!

♥ 2 vintage necklaces! $12.
♥ 3 bottles of nail polish (Pink,Purple,Yellow) from ♥Etude House!
♥ Bunny jacket from spree!
♥ Checkered top from spree!
♥ NY long sleeve top from spree for Japan trip♥!
♥ Cotton jeans from spree for Japan trip♥!
♥ Cute pouch♥ from pushcart at Bugis!
♥ Ribbon clips/bands from pushcart at Bugis!
♥ Wired bands from blogshops/shop @ CS.
♥ Super cheap & chio passport holder!
adding on...

AH.
I SWEAR AFTER EOY I GONNA SHOP TILL A DROP!

活着为什么那么累？

2010-09-24T21:17:00.000+08:00

不知道还有什么值得我微笑。
我的世界瞬间像一部黑白电影。
只有宠物小熊一直陪伴着我。
压抑着所有难过失去的伤心原因，
抱着小熊，反复想着哭过就好了。
　　
很想填补心中所需要的空缺，
可眼泪一次次掉落，
人变得懒惰沉默，
生活简单的剩下睡觉，
不愿看见白天与黑色的交替。
只是有时候会在梦中惊醒，连着哭了几翻，然后继续沉睡。
　　
好多天没有照过镜子，
我怕看到这副模样会让自己心疼，
我怕我会掉眼泪。
人活着为什么那样累？
这世界车水马龙，灯火珊阑，繁华。
而我却偏爱什么都没有的小窝。
关于离开，我想过很多回，
刀曾经在脉搏来回划动，划出一条条无耐的伤痕，
想到死亡，我害怕了，
扔了那把染过我无数次血腥的手匕。
我绝望了，人活在这世上，心早已经死了。
　　
可是我还是没有勇气死，我有放不下的牵挂。
却始终不懂谁才是我的牵挂。
如同行尸走肉的过着，
真的没有意义。活得好累，好累；

Boredom.

2010-09-21T19:46:00.000+08:00

당신의 헤드폰에 넣고 다 무시합니다.

I'm super bored. :X
Wei Sin & JV not online. :c
So stuck with stupid chopsick. LOL.
Viwawa, Facebook, MSN, Blogger.
Final Years are coming up.
Studied a lil only.
Time flies.
One blink and it's Final Year First paper.
Second blink and it's the last paper for Final Year.
Third Blink and it's result time.
Fourth blink and it's crying time.
Fifth blink and it's forget eerything time.
Sixth blink and it's play time.
Seventh blink and it's shopping time.
Eighth blink and it's Japan time.
Ninth blink and it's SG time.
Tenth blink and it's another year time!
Wow.

我快乐吗?

New interest! Decoden! :B

快乐是单纯的，快乐是寡欲的，快乐不是别人给予的，它存在于心灵清素淡雅之处。

Life without choice;

2010-09-20T22:37:00.000+08:00

孤独不但是态度，还是一种无奈，无奈无奈着，你就会觉得不孤独了，因为，你已经习惯了孤独，虽然习惯的是那么的无奈。

Super suayness.
Accidentally messed up and deleted my previous blogskin codes.
Spent 2 hour fixing it and it's still screwed. -.-
No choice, changed skin. :c

Life without choice;
一切不快乐，都和我们的要求有关，我们之所以不快乐，是我们渴望拥有的东西太多了，或者，太执着了，不知不觉，我们已经执迷于某个事物上了。

다시는 그런 느낌을 가지고 싶지 않아 :c

回到原点;

2010-09-18T15:36:00.000+08:00

我们转了一圈又一圈,最终又回到了原点.不经意见抬头,随即低下.是苦笑,是无奈.

是我做错了什么,还是老天真的不眷顾我.

都不给我一个说再见的机会,遗忘就是我们给彼此最好的纪念.

风已止,心已死...

Fat? So what?!

2010-09-13T21:55:00.002+08:00

Lala.Random post.
But this post is dedicated to all those ~~fat~~ (But normally I will say CHUBBY) babes out thr. ~
I don't care how chubby are you, but this is the truth :

"So what if we are Fat? Deal with It!

We're BIG WOMEN and WE LOVE IT! It takes a big body to contain all this FABULOUSNESS! Don't be jealous alrightie ? ^^ "

Okay lah, So normally, we, chubby people tends to get MORE attention as we get usually get comments from people around you like :

Person A : Wahh! See see, her THIGHS arh, so big sia~ *laughs* *points points*

Person B : Wahh! I think ah, you go in the swimming pool/hot spring/sea arh, *insert country name* get Tsunami ah.

Person C : Wahh! See see, thr got one 'bui' eh! Sibeh 'bui' sia! *laughs* *points points*
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Person Y : OI 死肥猪！(This means dead fat pig in English, normally use to insult fat ppl in chinese) HAHAHAHA. *laughs* *Points*

Person Z : Eat eat eat! So fat alr still eat!

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Okay lah, above are some comments people give when they see me but I will just joke, laugh and pretends nothing happen ~ Cause I know deep down inside ...

They are haters! I have TONS of em! They are just trying to putting you down to make themselves feel good! Plain jealously huh~ Not bad not bad. :> That's all I could say!

I have so many people hating on me, or should I say commenting on me when they don't even know me. And you know what I do ? I laugh! Haters make me famous! Commenting and pointing just makes people look at you. AND TADA. Famous ahuh~ (Remember to wave back when people look at you. ) They just want to make you feel crappy because they feel like sh*t about themselves!

Here is where the BHB (Buay Hiao Bai) skills come in ~

Ignore it because you know you are beautiful no matter what they say!
I don't care and I don't want to know how you look but I'm sure you are beautiful in some ways as 世界上只有懒女人没有丑女人。

And did you realise ?
Those who LOVES commenting doesn't look great themselves either. *Pimple face, shorty, Botaks, or someone with a simply TOOT hairstyle ...

And those people who make friends with chubby people are often quite chio or handsome.

Call this retribution or what. HAHA.

*Not insulting those who have pimples, short or botaks or ppl with toot hairstyle, just stating some examples~

If you wanna comment back, here are some awesome sentence you can use to shoot back :

" Fat is the new thin! It's better to bounce like a ball than snap like a twig! "
This is for those who wants to sound more smart.

" Aiyoo sayang, If I fat I can choose to go on diet, but you ah, Jialat liao wor. No matter how many times of plastic surgery you go also no hope ah. " *Prays*
This is for "typical Singaporeans" with Singlish ~

"My dear, I can lose weight tomorrow, but you can't gain brains. Sad life. You should be hiding in one corner and chant FML. "
Use this anytime you want~

Oh, best if the person who insult you is a guy, this method won't fail if he's A GUY.
I REPEAT. A REAL MAN with balls.

Step 1 : Tap the guy or call out to the guy who LOVES commenting on you.
Step 2 : Look down at his you-know-where (Girls, no need to be shy, it's nothing :> )
Step 3 : Stare for awhile and start shaking head.
Step 4 : Stick out your thumb.
Step 5 : Compare your thumb with his you-know-where by looking at your thumb, then his you-know-where and start make the 'ze ze ze' sound.
Step 6 : Then say "Aiyo, JIALAT LIAO. Shorter than my thumb sia! I can recommend you my uncle, he's a good doctor you know. Maybe he can help you with that problem so that your future wife won't 给你戴绿帽 AKA cheat on you. :) "
Step 7 : Walk away. *Provide a name card of your uncle if you can*

HAHA.
I am sucha genius. :>
ROFL.
So there's nothing wrong if you're fat!
Dieting can always starts tmr!

Let's end off with a video ~

痛到麻木也好;

2010-09-11T21:35:00.000+08:00

痛到麻木也好，也就不痛了。伤疤被无情的揭开，撒满盐粒之后。瞬间的剧痛过后也许麻木的

不知道何谓疼痛了。。。。。。。。。。

-------------无题

学会放弃,
可能我们活得更轻松快乐,
学会放弃,
在眼泪落下的瞬间,
转身离去,
留下简单的身影,
学会放弃,
将痛苦埋在心底,
留下曾经属于彼此最美好的记忆;
所以选择离去,
孤单的时候也不会躲在被人遗忘的角落,
在遗忘中学会解脱,
还做原来的我;

100th. :D

2010-09-11T18:59:00.001+08:00

My 100th post~ WOO.
And a super SUAY day for me. LOL.
Stop guessing, Neither did I step on dog poo nor sat on chewing gum,
I just...

Fell badly. LOL.
Abrasion ah Abrasion~

Okay, so I went to meet Wei Sin at the Bus stop and the blood just flow down my legs. LOL. So went to guardian and bought gauze and tape and weisin helped me to cover my wound, met JV & we proceed on the gym. JV say I was super 滑稽 there. LOLOL! Started with the cycling thingy, then i burn 50 cal and i wanted to die alr. Went on the threadmill for 20 minutes and I almost fainted when I come down. LOL. Super giddy~ Then burn another 70 cal from the pull pull thingy. JV help me to change my dressings for the 2nd time and tada ~

JV did that. LOL.

Compared it to what my dad did ...

HAHA. LOLOL.

Okay so after that the 3 ppl want to bathe and I was sitting thr waiting for them.

Random shot~

Weisin and JV doing their exercise...

So after that, went to eat and I resisted temptation! CHICKEN CHOP! LOL. I ate porridge. ^^ I was trying to be a dietician telling them this cannot eat that cannot eat. JV and WS almost killed me. LOL! After that MRT-ed to paya lebar with Wei Sin to This Fashion and try clothes again for the 987654321 times. ROFL! Bused home and here I'm typing.

My dad just put anticeptics on my wound and I just screamed like mad.

Pain till almost cry. ;(

Wish me get well soon. LOL.

kthxbai. :D

我就像一个小丑.

2010-09-10T00:44:00.000+08:00

我就像一个小丑.
丑化自己，愉悦别人。
我努力想要传达的是所剩无几的快乐，
我想告诉身边的每一个人我是如何如何在幸福。
每天都用笑容去面对身边的每一个人。
无论是朋友还是亲人，抑或擦肩而过的陌生人。

那些破茧而出的美丽遮盖住了所有不为人知的疮痍，
就像我从来都不允许自己难过，在任何人面前难过。
总是一次又一次地逼迫自己习惯周围千分贝的冷嘲热讽，
习惯所有人的横眉瞪眼。

我以为这样就可以做到视而不见，
我以为这样就可以不让自己泪流满面。

还是那么天真的以为，以为那些以为的以为。

始終小丑就是小丑，
我是小丑不能讓別人看到我難過的樣子，
給我個面具吧...讓我可以沒有難過的表情，
既然我連眼淚都流不出來，那上天你就讓我笑一輩子啊！！

我的表演完了，給我點掌聲吧，
哈哈.....哈哈哈.....
笑阿，全世界都給我笑吧。; /

JMWFJ :D

2010-09-07T21:18:00.002+08:00

Kbox (K-ing songs I meant, as we went to Teo Heng) today with Wei Sin , Jievanda , Mariam and Jonathan was AWESOME!!
Met @ Bus Interchange and I was the last to arrive. :X Ooops!
Bus-ed off and crazy all the way throughout our bus trip!
HOHO. I disiao-ed Jonathan! HAHA! Damn funny please! LOL.
My aim is to make his neck break! HAHA.
Reached and went searching for Teo Heng.
Although the outside sucks, inside is OMG. LOL.
Audio system not bad, food quite cheap, Air con strong and last but not least the most important point, CHEAP!
I bet Singaporeans will chiong thr if they see the word 'CHEAP'. xD
Messed around with the touchscreen thingy and started our K-ing session~~~
First song selected - 不能说的秘密.
Abit 冷门 for the 1st song, but who cares?!
Continued with hyper songs and emo songs!
Blasted music and OMG!
Fun like shyt! LOL!
The funniest part is when we sing 'Fuck you' and after that,
Jonathan was saying "this is the first time I said so many eff word within 3 minutes!!"
ROFL!
After K-ing, Jonathan went home then the girls went summerfrost!
Ate ice cream and went Marine Parade to window shop!
OMG.
We totally like aunties lor!
Trying sample here & thr! LOLOL! All kena influence by me~ tytyty! ^^
BBT and went home~

Tralala. Peeks time!

Super blur group photo without me. ^^

Okay I know you miss me.

I've a new profile picture, you can stare as long as you like. x)

BYE. :D

JMWFJ ROCKS. :D

安静　沉默　无奈

2010-09-04T18:43:00.000+08:00

今天不知道怎么了，
内心真的好悲、
心情坏，
真的很差。
总是会胡思乱想起来，
不知道为什么？
自己变得好迷茫，
就像迷失在一片白茫茫的雾里一样失去了安全感;

内心充满了不安定，
总是会发呆好久，
想的什么连我自己都不知道。
为什么人总是会有那么多的情绪？
为什么要让我存在那么多的情感？
是我太敏感了吗？
敏感到对周围的一切都尽收起来了吗？
还是自己更加的多愁善感起来了呢？
我真的不知道了。

人生总是会有很多不如意的地方，
我知道的、也明白的！
但是自己就是做不到坦然面对、
做不到勇敢；
我不想当一朵温室里的花朵，可
是自己好像就是迈不出去那勇敢的一步。
总是去逃避现实的很多问题，
我到底要怎么做才可以把自己变得更加坚强呢？

就像风迷失了方向、
我丢了翅膀，
在时间的空间里随波流浪着
，忘记了怎么飞翔……
也许是我想得太多了
，也许是我太过敏感了，
为什么会感到不快乐？
为什么会有一点不安？
为什么感到悲伤？
也许我是真得把快乐遗忘了……
曾经的一切只能在记忆中去寻找……

一个人孤独的走着，
不知道自己将要走向何方，
自己的最终归宿又会是怎样的呢？
生活中总会出现迷茫的时刻，
就像现在的自己,
尽管上课下课看似很充实，
可是早已失去了目标，
迷茫了，
只是漫无目的的走着……走着……

是何时养成了这样的坏习惯呢？
一个人睡的时候，
总是侧着身子蜷缩成小小的一团；
即使在很热很热的天气里，
还是会紧紧抱住棉被，
仿佛只有这样，
才可以稍稍的安心睡眠。

每次笑容到了顶端，
就会感觉内心有个无底的黑洞在蔓延扩张。
它像头野兽，
毫不留情的吞噬掉我所有的情绪。
于是灿烂的笑意渐渐僵硬起来。
在四周围绕很多朋友说说笑笑，
吵吵闹闹的时候，
我也会会说的很大声，
看似很高兴的样子，
其实内心会感觉前所未有的庞大孤单，
情愿蹲在某个僻静角落，冷眼旁观，默默无语。
我想一辈子都会是个剧烈矛盾体了！

一半明媚灿烂，
一半暗淡无光，
时而张扬跋扈
，时而胆怯懦弱，
某处安淡寂静，
某处颓丧萎靡，
习惯速战速决，
也习惯慢慢吞吞；
一边自私，
一边自责。
一直感伤，
也一直感思;

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2010-09-03T22:34:00.001+08:00

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2010-09-01T14:06:00.008+08:00

Fanny rocks on! Blogshop rocks on!
Show Luo rocks on! Wei Yu rocks on!
Music rocks on! Photoshop rocks on!
Jievanda rocks on! Wei Sin rocks on! Mariam rocks on! Tiffany rocks on!
Jonathan rocks on! Hui Fang rocks on! Shi Yun rocks on! Mei Qi rocks on!
NPCC rocks on!
DISDAIN-ED.blogspot.com rocks on!
My life rocks on!
Cuz they are revolving around my life and I LOVE THEM TTM! <3
LOL.

LALALALALA~

I (heart) my profile pic!
LOLOL.
Fanny♥吴俊谚! 吴鲔鱼 {;

Lalala.
Offlining after posting this.
Gotta study Chem & Phy + Geo later. ~
Boring ttm lorr!
Hate exams! >_<
And I think I seriously gonna flunk all my subjects this time round.
If all pass uhs, MIRACLE SIA. LOL.
Gonna get my clothes later with darling sin sin. AHAHAHA. (Jonathan cfm gonna say sin sin is his. xD ) LOL!
But money fly arh. ;(
Super random nowadays.
kthxbye.

“To help yourself, you must be yourself. Be the best that you can be. When you make a mistake, learn from it, pick yourself up and move on.”

Blogshopping ! (rock) :D LOL.

2010-08-31T20:39:00.000+08:00

Okay, finally back to normal posting. Be Happy JV & WeiSin xDD So... was busy with common test, NP stuffs nowadays. Anws, my life this few weeks have been revolving around JV & WeiSin. I'm seeing them everyday! (cuz of webcam xP) And I'm hanging out with them quite often too~ Had fun totally! xDD All influence one another to be 'zilian', BHB, & Horniness! LOLOL! I don't know why I'm posting this anyways. Random-ing~

Have been blogshopping this few weeks & I bought 1 jacket, 1 dress, 1 bag and 1 bracelet. SINFUL LAH! I told myself not to spend, but all the stuffs keep influencing me! Weisin bought 1 dress & 1 bag too. xD I've yet to influence JV yet. LOLOL!

LALA. Random post. ~ LOL.

Blogshopping ! (rock) :D LOL.

Killer.

2010-08-31T16:26:00.002+08:00

Finished 4 papers - English, Chinese, Maths, Social studies.
Geo, Combine science + F&N to go.
Speechless.
Common test is a killer.
Bye.

懒的说话，
只是因为伤感；
更怕孤独，
别无其它，
只是伤感；
害怕被伤害，
更害怕伤害别人，
因此......

有时很安静，
连自己都意想不到，
安静的不想说话，
不想理人，
不知道这是遗留下来的创伤还是一直都存在的伤。

想跨越这段不愉快，
却发现自己在这个伤心的地方迷失了自己，
同时也迷路了，
找不到走出泥潭的路。
我在挣扎，
却挣脱不了，
因此变的伤感，
和好友通话都会落泪，
当用冰凉的手指触到这滚烫的泪水时自己都震惊了，
不知道为什么，
没有理由，
只是伤感，
别无其它。

不知什么时候，
自己变的这么伤感，
只知道为什么我活的这么累,
身边的人，
身边的事有时候真的无法面对，
更无法面对自己，
每天重复着同样的生活。
不知什么时候习惯了一个人，
喜欢一个人，
不知道什么时候爱上了安静，
爱上了沉默，
是自己变了还是时间变了。

一直以为自己是坚强的，
当真正去面对现实时才发现没有想象中的那么坚强，
想哭却找不到合适的地方。
在拥挤的人群中自己要显得坚强，
有时感觉人就像件卑微的衣裳，
无时无刻不在注意别人的眼光，
单纯变成被人耻笑的高尚。

生命中最重要的东西;

2010-08-29T13:41:00.001+08:00

现实世界是残酷的，
听到的，看到的，
一切都是残酷的。

耳机对我来说是我生命中最重要的东西，
应为当你戴上它时，一切都变得美丽了。
听到的，看到的，
一切都变美了。

应为当你戴上它时，那些伤人的话，变成了美丽的音乐，
那些嘲笑的笑声，也便成了唯美的笑容。
只有在那一刻，
世界才真正变美丽了。

只有陶醉在音乐中，才可以感受到世界的美好。。。

Tired of caring, tired of loving, tired of waiting, tired of the deafening silence…

2010-08-22T12:26:00.001+08:00

Not on a "pity-pot," nor ranting or venting...
I'm just tired.

I’m tired of being misunderstood,
nerves are shot,
weak – like old wood.

I’m tired of being ill,
no energy, can’t think,
losing my skills.

I’m tired of trying to make things right,
I give up – I surrender,
no will to fight.

I’m tired of seeing others in pain,
raises frustration,
drives me insane.

I’m tired of not being able to cry,
i’d melt away,
nothing left inside.

I’m tired because I can’t feel,
walking in a daze – numb
this can’t be real.

I’m tired of being “strong,”
i’m weak, i’m fragile,
its gone on way to long.

I don’t know what else to say,
I’m hoping, i’m dreaming,
I’m begging, i’m pleading,
Please, take this feeling away.

Right now… I’m just tired…

好像是我变了;

2010-08-21T18:42:00.000+08:00

身边的一切都没变，好像是我变了……

每天还是像往常一样上课、下课，只是现在生活规律化了点。

有点精疲力尽的感觉，好累，好困，却不想睡。

像一张白张，一切都是那么透明。

成熟，沉默；

脸上有一丝忧愁，一丝微笑，一丝模糊不清的表情。

不用顾忌身边的人的目光，处在一个安静的角落，静静地；

是我变了吗？我在反思，我没变，一切还是原来的样子。

我不会在乎那么多了，只要开心就好。

会有一种无所谓的态度，没有迁就。

有种感觉，与世隔绝了，一切都是那么现实，却又是那么不现实。

有时会很在乎别人的看法，有时会不顾及别人的感受，但心里会很不舒服。

有时会很有主见，有时也会摇摆不定；

有时会傻傻地笑，有时会静静地哭；

有时会健忘，有时却无法忘记某些事；

有时会很可爱，有时会很沉默；

有时会很自悲，有时会很自信；

有时真想颓废，有时会想更好地生活。

人总是矛盾着……

“不要在乎别人的看法，你是你，我是我，他是他，它是它。”

If you want to change your life, change your mind.

2010-08-16T21:31:00.000+08:00

那些话很烦,
那些话很有缺陷,完全可以用理论去推翻。
那些话对我已经麻木了，因为他们只会说那些话；
除了骂我们，
家长还会干嘛呢，
天天口口声声的说为我们好，
除了听他们骂，
我不知道还可以听到什么了。
很烦，想变的更坏了。

Very often a change of self is needed more than a change of scene.
We must learn to view change as a natural phenomenon - to anticipate it and to plan for it.
The future is ours to channel in the direction we want to go...

Unriddle.

2010-08-14T14:03:00.000+08:00

Suppo people, I know you all miss my post luhs! xD *points to JV & WS* xDD
Summarization of what I did this week :

Tuesday
JV, WS & mariam came to my house after NP meeting. Totally ransacked my house! LOLOL! The hamster poop on JV. AHAHAHHA! Went to LJS to lunch after that. Proceed to weisin house and used her lappy. Webcam with Anthony. LOLOL! Funny ttm! And I called him a wayang creature cause he was playing with his webcam effect with a wayang mask. And he was showing off that got girls like him lor. LOL. But sad to say, I'm not jealous. xDD Went home after that.

Wednesday
Went to find supplier after school with JV and WS. Had lunch at mac and then went to a "haunted" factory which looks super dilapilated. LOL. Super eerie lor! Music coming out from radios, and I got scared by a uncle coming down the stairs. LOLOL! Asked for the price then went to TM cause I want to shop! Was OMFG-ing with weisin when we went looking for those clothes! xDD

Thursday
Went down to see the sec 1s train for their PDS. I was mostly with Yong Lun's group most of the time. Went to JV thr and my butt was burning like !&*%^!@%@^@%^! LOL. Played with Yong lun's group and it was super funny lahs! Jerrick was super bad! LOL. Then played the endurance test with them. Super fun! xDD

That's all,
I guess. LOL.

People put up walls to see who bothers to knock them out.
You put up walls,
We've talked to you to try to break your walls down,
But seems like you've put up more walls to make us break them down.
Sorry to tell you,
如果你不帮自己,没有人帮得了你。

真的不想；

2010-08-06T23:54:00.000+08:00

我可以用感动来解释眼泪，
可是我可以用欺骗来安慰伤痛吗？
我想要继续的哭泣不得不终止，
想要挣扎的勇气不得不呼吸，
想要释放的感伤不得不收敛，
只因为有人在看，
真的不想，
眼泪代表的脆弱来诠释撕心裂肺的伤，
真的不想，
一味顺从疼痛的撕咬，
真的不想，
总是放任悲伤，狂跳，
而我抓不住，也跳不出;
眼泪，要多久才会流下？
我知道，这问题问得似乎很傻。
那么轻盈的一滴,流过脸庞，
常常只在瞬间。
如果是那些琼瑶苦情戏里的演员，
几秒钟就可以泪流满面。
又何必问，
一滴泪，落下的时间？

可我常常觉得，
流下一滴眼泪，
需要很久很久。

人越长大，
就越习惯于压抑内心的真实感受，
不再放声大哭放声大笑，
什么都只是淡淡的点到为止。

好像越来越没有什么事情，
可以让我伤心到立刻落泪，
像是传说中丢失了泪腺的骆驼，
再也找不出，释放伤感的出口。
于是一滴泪，在渗出眼眶之前，
早已在心中酝酿了许久，
甚至可能在落下之前，已经悄悄蒸发。

有的时候感到难过，
就一直对自己说，
先不要哭先忍着，
现在要去上学要去和爸妈吃饭，
等过一会儿，
回了家再关上门哭。

于是很辛苦的仰起头深呼吸，
仿佛把那滴眼泪又狠狠压回心里，
神色如常的，奔波，忙碌，寒暄，微笑。

可是好不容易回到家，
已累得筋疲力尽，
除了困也顾不上其它，
还是洗洗睡吧还是不要再这么多愁善感，
明天眼睛哭肿了会有多么难看，
就让神经粗糙一点坚硬一点吧，
我不哭。

我不知道这是隐忍了多久的泪水，
但它终于在这样一个湿润的早上，
急速的落下，嚣张的释放。
我想还可以有时间有机会自由的哭，
总是好的；
还可以狠狠的流出眼泪，
就说明心还没有干涸；
还可以感觉到痛，
那是因为灵魂，还没有苍老麻木。

一滴眼泪，要用多长时间，才可以自由释放？……

Happy Birthday 罗小祥！

2010-07-30T22:18:00.002+08:00

ƒannyy™ - 我♥羅志祥! {;

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DARLING LAOGONG !

生日快乐罗小祥！

TADA!

I photoshopped this for 2 hours and still, it sucks. ;X

BLABLA, whatever. I like can already!

(P/S : Jonathan, don't jealous. :D )

2010-07-27T19:36:00.000+08:00

You make the connection that if lying is bad, liars are bad.
It’s just that simple.
I lied to you.
Cause I don't want you to jump to conclusion.
Since you don't trust me anymore,
Don't bother calling me up,
asking me where I'm.
Cause I will not answer.

Back at home,

"Where did you go?"
"Nowhere."

What did you do?"
"Nothing."

"Who was there?"
"Nobody you'd know."

shall be the conversation between me and you,
from today onwards.

written on 7:35pm, Tuesday 27 July 2010.
By Fanny Kwek.

我累了！可以休息了吗？

2010-07-26T20:27:00.001+08:00

真的很想呐喊：我累了！可以休息了吗？
累了，是应该停下脚步，好让自己休息吗？
因为休息才能走更长远的路。

可是我。。累了。。
我也不知道原因。。

想太多想累了。。
相处到累了。。
面对问题累了。。
解决问题累了。。
聆听到累了。。
真的很累了。。

我累了,我是真的累了......
而且只是累了.....累了，
不想再继续前进下去，
想停下来，
找一个可以靠的港湾，
休息一下下…
忙碌还是需要清静，
只有真正清晰的心境，才会看到前方朗朗的晴空。
我只是累了而已，只是不想再去追寻那些无所谓的东西。　

每个人都有一些支离破碎的心情，
那些残缺的伤口每经历过一次冥想的摧残之后，
总会顽强地记起往昔的疼痛。
于是喜欢写一些寂寞的文字，
从唯美的指间倾泻流畅的话语，
将淡泊包裹在刻满失意的心里，

生活中有太多的繁琐，
我疲惫不堪的眼睛里总是读出太多的无奈。
想找个人来陪我逛街，想找个人来分享我寂寞的心绪。
习惯了用忧伤敏感的方式来抚平忧郁，
将伤感化作四季的轮回，
遗忘，再记起。
欲将心事付瑶琴，
知音少，弦断有谁听？

现在的我真的好累好累，
累到我真的有的时候想一睡不醒，
我知道这是一种很自私的想法，
可是我真的好累好累，
人应该每天迎着挑战前进的
这样的人生才有意义不是吗？
可是人堕落真的好容易，
相反前进一步都好困难，
现在连每一秒的呼吸都是痛苦的，
如果现在的我无牵无挂该有多好啊，
什么都不需要想，
别人不会为你伤心，
你也不会为别人难过。。
涙。
累的想一睡不醒。

只不過是天真的以為;

2010-07-22T20:54:00.001+08:00

原來不是白就是黑,　
只不過是天真的以為,
要醉得清醒 ,
要無辜的犯罪;

現實的世界只有灰 ,
堅強的太久好疲憊　,
想抱愛的人沉沉的睡 ,
捲來的風暴　,
兇猛裡有種美,
死了心, 痛就沒感覺;

灰色空間,
我是誰;
無路可退,　
妳是誰, 怎麼為我流淚;

夢見發著光的草原,
一身傷回到很久以前,
我選擇不恨　,
帶著平靜走遠　,
醒來後　,
夜還是長夜,

夢見發著光的草原,
一身傷回到很久以前 ;
我選擇不恨　,
帶著平靜走遠,
醒來後,　夜還是長夜 ;

小丑的泪。

2010-07-15T20:48:00.000+08:00

小丑用尽一生中最惨烈的苦楚,博取的只是大众的一笑,
他最终的目的只是想有人欢喜, 被遗忘的人在世界的角落，谁都不会留心。

人们总以为小丑是快乐的，因为他能使人快乐所以自己也快乐，错了，人们错了。
舞台的背后谁又能看到卸妆后的小丑的眼泪?

悲伤是遗忘的罪，谁能看到小丑妆下的眼泪。
我的泪是大家所看不到的，因为忘记了。
忘记了小丑也是平凡的人，平凡的人也有眼泪;

孤独的夜梦是无尽未来的沉默不语。
逝去的太多，回忆的太少。
悲伤的人独自走在寂静中，迷失在这个黑暗的世界里。
累了，残喘在这个世界里。
痛苦的边缘是绝境。
凄美的秋天，还是涩涩的雨。
凉风习习。温暖的眼泪，从心里留出。
眼泪滑下的那一刻便是绝望的那一刻。
明白了，当眼泪划过，就明白了，这个丑陋而美丽的世界;
孤独的夜梦是无尽未来的沉默不语。
逝去的太多，回忆的太少。
悲伤的人独自走在寂静中，迷失在这个世界里，还记得那句——悲伤是遗忘的罪，
谁能看到小丑妆下的眼泪……

最后的风度;

2010-07-12T21:59:00.001+08:00

我不怕爱的残酷,

反正我很想跳舞,

我最喜欢挑战孤独,

我也爱放下包袱,

没有谁我也不舍得哭,

我我不在乎;

我选择了做小丑，只是希望，我的演出能赢得你们的笑容；

I acted like it did'nt bother me, but really, I think about it all the time.

2010-07-11T20:31:00.000+08:00

I've MIA-ed for 3 week ++ !
I know you all miss my posts right! (Referring to Tiffany,Weisin & many more! xDD)
I'm damn busy this few weeks with meetings and cupcakes making. @_@
I shall only blog about the farewell party, and also POP. + some super random stuffs!

Started off with games! Supposed to have wet activites, but due to the rain, we played OUCH instead. Super funny! Shakul was damn scared of me. MUAHAHA. LOL.Played ABC also then started to practice for POP. The 14 step drills damn hard to be in the same rank! $!&*^(*!@&()*(!^&*! And Jonathan was the new PC. He did a great job, his cane drills not bad. ^^

After POP, Everybody started 'chionging', all were damn pissed, even Jerrick. I kept hearing him scolding TMD. LOL. Let's skip skip skip skip to the party bahh. :> Ooh, wait, I JV got me & mariam to go into the toilet to look for her belt & the corridor was bloody dark, and the EXIT light was green, look like some haunted house ays, so I started screaming, so Mariam was also scared and in the end, we got JONATHAN to follow us. BLOODY HIM, scare me like what. !^*&@*^&@! But he went into the girls toilet with us and he went to use the toilet thr. ROFL! Then he ps us run up to 4th level and bloody scare me and mariam again! !^&^@*%!&)(@! & before that, I got shocked by yong lun then followed by weisin. My spirit alr fly till dunno whr alr. LOL. But in the end, jv's belt is @ home. ROFL!

Okay, so farewell party started! Everything went pretty well. I didn't cry, but going to. 2009-2010 Cadet Leaders, ILYYYYYYYYY~ LOL! I posted something on each of their walls, at least those I have in my friend list. Lol. Thanks alot Cadet Leaders! Esp to Jie Ting Maam & Shan Leong Sir!

(I've typed the above text since 123456789 days ago and I haven't manage to post it. LOL.)

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So just now went to have dinner with Weisin & Tiffany. Super funny to the max! Was laughing all the way even after dinner! ROFL! Shall end off with this picture :

Ooh, got people want hit me ler. :X LOL.

Meeh. Cake session/STC!

2010-06-22T20:28:00.003+08:00

I'm chewing on Ribena sweets now. Even though I'm sick. :X The medicine is making me drowsy, but I don't wanna sleep my day away, so here I am blogging. Shall start last Thurs which is like damn long alr.

Last Thurs:
Meehz. Stayed at home to packed my bag for STC. Freaking bored after that. So I went shopping with my sister ! And we saw a place damn pinkish + girly ! It's something like a bakery luhs, but they allow you to decorate your own cake ! Cool right ! So me and my sister went on and get a cake to design ~ Guess what we wrote on the cake ? (Scroll down to the bottom for the answer + picture of the cake ! ^^) The cake is damn yummy lah, super soft + there is fruits at the center of the cake. Definately worth it!

Last friday to sunday:
STC time! Went to school early cause we was told to discuss about the CLBTC assessment. In the end, ended up playing. LOL! Then we went to eat lunch together and set off for Changi jetty. Tiffany took random videos and there is ALOT of unglam part of me lor! Was told our group and Reached Pulau Ubin together with each individual groups. Had treasure hunt first then we 'hiked' up to the camp site. Last group to reach, so we didn't need to pitch the tent. Haha, sometimes being last isn't a bad thing. ROFL! Then dinner, washed up and sleep. I think I slept the most comfortably in my tent, even thou I was the nearest to the entrance. Alot of ants and creepy crawlies lor. All crawling on the ground sheet. I killed like 987654321 of them before I went to sleep. I was the weird one who wore jacket to sleep even thou it's freaking hot. I don't care man! I just don't want ugly bites on my hand! So turn out I never got bite on my hands, but on my fingers instead. -.-' And my tentmates all didn't slept well, and I heard them saying "Fanny must be super tired, see she sleep until so sweet." And it's like duhh, why should I sacrifice my sleep? LOL. Ooh, my group CI aka Justin Sir is damn cute pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee! (right Tiffany/Weisin/JV ? Don't jealous. :> ) LOL. We wanted our group name to be called Justin Bieber cause same name as him, but kena rejected cause the theme is superheros. -.-' so our name changed to carebears instead. So the song 'baby', became 'carebears'! LOL. And I was like carebears carebears carebears OOOOOOOH! LOL! Sir was damn random lor! He suddenly sing "Heal the world, make it a better place, for you and for me and the entire carebear race, there are, carebears dying, if you care enough for the living, make it a better place for you and carebears ~ " LOL. Then he sang 'char shao bao' infront of my group also! LOL.

Saturday!
PT in the morning, people do push up and crunches, I do 'twinkle twinkle little star'. LOL. Super tiring okay! Who say I slack ?! I !@#$%^&*($@W%E&)* you ah! So I was somehow resting, then Terrence sir was like "That twinkle twinkle little star girl, don't eat snake! " (Eat snake - jia zhuar in cantonese, meaning don't try to slack) LOL. So damn paiseh lor, everybody on the ground, only I standing, so OUTSTANDING hor. Then Eric Sir sabo-ed us, call us roll on the ground. But still, I was still clean. HAHA. LOL. After that, our activities start!

1. High Rope Element.
While waiting for the instructor to come, we had our group discussion 1st. So our group called weisin's group - power ranger to be power losers. So Eric Sir came over to my group and say, "Carebears (my group name), you all act cute ah ?!" Then I said " SIR SIR ! We naturally cute, no need act, not like you!" then I almost kena by eric sir ! Eric sir wanted me to do 10 pumpings but luckily, I cannot do + my group saved me. HAHA. So went to the elements and I was there to help pull the ropes. And I was telling everyone up there that there lifes is in my hand, so they better don't agitate me before I make them fall from the 5th floor. *evil grins*

2.Shelter building and Fire Starting AKA survival training.
Was told to build shelter inside the forest. I did nothing much, I practically learned scratching and hitting mosquito inside the forest. ROFL. But I don't think our shelter got use uhs, below got undergrowth somemore. LOL! And if 1 branches 'piak!' right, say goodbye to the shelter. LOL. So fire starting next ! Collect twigs etc and start starting fire. Quite cool ays!

Then LUNCH TIME !

After that, we continue with our last activity !

3. Jetty Jump.
I didn't play too. LOL. So the instructor came over and ask why. So I was like "you know I know" Then he was like OOH. Then he ask another girl "you also you know I know?" LOL. Then the girl was like "yeah" HAHA. xDD Trick other people with weisin's bottle which looks like it contains cold water when actually it's just Pocari Sweat. Blehs. I know I am boliao. xP Then Campfire! Super high when we was told to move into the canteen to continue due to Cat.1 Terence VS Terence is the cutest! xDD Then when it's my turn to do group cheer, JV and weisin shouted CAREBEAR FANNY. LOL. Get to sleep in the foyer thanks to Cat.1 also ! :DD Tzu Ying maam got us to do BV Super HOT cheer to show the rest of the girls and Allison maam was singing baby due to influence of our carebear daddy (Justin Sir). (Daddy! That's what we call him during camp!) And he called us bearbear/baby. LOL. No night walk thanks to Cat.1 But also thanks to Cat.1 too. No need walk alone. :B

Peektures time ~

The pro - Me lah. LOL.

The finish product! - WE LOVE SHOW LUO! :D

Side view ~

More peeks ~

Sorry, I'm too obsessed with my cake. LOL. I kept taking peeks of it. LOL.

Me enjoying the cake.

Sorry for my ugly face.

Tyvm.

Bearbears with carebear daddy in formal shot!

(carebear daddy is the orange shirt long sleeve guy)

I look retarded, don't look for me. LOL.

BearBears with carebear daddy in informal shot!

Carebears save the day ~! *SHINE*

I look retarded, don't look for me. LOL.

Uh ohh~ Someone lost their underwear....

Our squad! I'm hiding under my bag away from the camera! LOL.

Weisin! Something for you:

That's the cheer I teached you! LOL.

And you're famous alr, this picture is from facebook. HAHA.

Weisin, your notebook got exposed. LOL.

And lastly,

Tiffany, something for you :

I bet Tiffany will be saying "AWW, so cute." Hahas. :P

Okay.
I shall go & rest now.
Goodluck to those @ CLBTC ~
Maybe will join you guys on Thursday!
And I went for filming too,
shall blog it next time. :B

我不配;

2010-06-15T22:02:00.000+08:00

I ask myself.
Am I ready ?
No, I don't think I'm ready.
Wait, I don't even think I'm fit to．
I don't wish to be,
not that I don't want,
but I just don't want the rest to be pulled down by me.
They are good, real good.
Me?
I don't think I'm good at anything besides playing.
Everything will go haywire with me.
Everything will be crashed with me.
我不配;
I pray hard.

Filming = great fun!

2010-06-12T23:08:00.001+08:00

Tired ~ :( But happy!

(P/S : My eyelashes kinda look longer here. :o )

(P/P/S : It's not photoshopped nor editted. I only adjust the lightings. Blame it on my phone camera. LOL. )

I'm back from straight 2 and a 1/2 day of filming. :> The title say everything lahhs. Haha! But hell will be starting soon. :( I bet I'm gonna slim down when I go through hell. LOL. Good thing anws. So, let's elaborate on filming then.

1st day. (Thurs)
I learnt how to play 'daidee' and 'cheat'. I rock in cheat. LOL. Okay, I'm slow, who cares. LOL. But until nao I still don't know what is royal flush ah, straight flush all this. ROFL. Super funny things happened ! Arnold don't know say what thing then we started comparing '***' size. LOL! Ownage! xDD AHH. Well, I still get to see the main cast. (That's the only reason why I went for the filming) -wink- LOL. I was joking. :> BOO. Okay, there was one scene where me and this guy (name Sean) suppose to walk down the stairs which we will meet the mains. So I was buttoning my last button when he suddenly tell me "EHH! ACTION ALREADY FASTER WALK! " and he pretended to walk. And I was like OH SHYT. And I started to chiong. But who knows, once I start to walk, behind started laughing -.- The director haven't even say start. -.-
gosh, damn paiseh lahhs. :X And for the 1st time, I almost banged into Sab**** while the 2nd time I almost banged into the monitor. (Both the mains) So S was telling me "Aiyooo, don't block people lahhs!". Ay, too gentle until I got freaked out. LOL.

2nd day.
Stupid thiam keep disiao me when I wasn't shooting. What, kwek, what 'if you happy and you know it slap fanny' Sibeh 欠扁 lor. But whatever. I got my revenge back by 'bullying' him back. x) And this guy, damn good @ cheating man. Play 'cheat' 2 times with him and he totally owned me. CHEAT MY FEELING. :( So, he left his short pants under the table behind me and hengheng Anqi sit behind me so she was asking me whose pants it was. So... The pants when flying over the room! (If you don't get it, I threw it across to him, you moron.) So ZJ was like "这位同学，你知道你是不可以乱丢东西的吗？" and I was like, sorry lah. :( ROFL. And director was damn cute please. We are suppose to write a composition on the topic "我是谁" and he was talking to himself with some funny gestures and he was like "我是谁？我就是我咯！" and I went laughing like some mad woman. Then the another Tiffany say I cannot stop laughing one. (Sorry lah, my life revolves around laughters! LOL. )

3rd day. (Last day :[)
Met weisin on bus. LOL. And then we saw tiffany @ the traffic light. So qiao. Haha! So the morning I saw director and I was like "Hi 导演！" and he was like "HELLO ! Good morning !" LOL! So cute right ! HAHAS. Then there was one scene where me , tiffany and weisin had to make a shock expression when the monitor was playing the 'drums' and we went laughing like mad! LOL. Weisin keep doing the funny expression lahs ! Making me want to laugh! But I was damn happy, cause got 对到眼 with some people. ^~^ LOL. Blehxzx. I am huachi-ing nao~ So after that went to Macs with tiffany, weisin and leonard. Stupid leonard keep making me laugh like mad. AND WEISIN, I'm not sick! You're the sickest of all! xDD

(P/P/P/S : I'm gonna change my profile pic soon~ :B)

Randoming.
Nights!

Bimbotic.

2010-06-09T12:59:00.002+08:00

Bimbotic.

Aiya, whatever lahh, I'm a bimbo okay.

I'm that bitch who keep bitching around.

Wtf is wrong with you man ? -.-

(P/S : If you think I'm talking bout you, it's you.)

Note to myself :

- MYOB. If he's hurt, that's his problem.

( P/P/S : I want a camera. :[ )

I'm your biggest fan.

2010-06-08T20:53:00.005+08:00

他一定会后悔的；

-shake head-

我放弃了，只是为什么，我还会常常在深夜里想起你，还会在喧嚣的人群里想起你，还会在忧伤的歌声中想起你，还会在茫然的大海边想起你，还会在冷冷的风中想起你，还会在寂寞的独吟中想起你……想起你冰冷的眼神，想起你难忘的身影,多少次曾试着不再去触摸记忆深处的你，我才发现我只是一味的在欺骗自己。我始终不曾做到自己许下的诺言，我永远是只有爱，没有恨。爱的痛了，痛的哭了，哭的累了，矛盾心里总是强求，劝自己要放手，闭上眼让你走;孤单的人总说无所谓,还是独自整理所有伤悲, 掩饰心中的感觉;
xoxo

The friendship that can cease has never been real.

2010-06-07T20:57:00.005+08:00

Strawberries are my new crush. ♥

爱情只是因为寂寞,需要找一个人来爱,即使没有任何结局; ♥

I've been returning to school everyday. School is like my home alr. I've been spending more time at school instead of home. :X Holiday homeworks are getting on my nerves. Just Chinese alone can kill. :/ I have yet to done my chinese compositions, F&N and English essays and compre. The only homework I've done is my acelearning + speech. Ace learning practically 'hantam' all the way. Failed 1 and borderline pass for the 2nd one. Ah whatever. Totally no mood to do them, or even touch them. Not in the study mood.

Went to Downtown East today for the family carnival thingy. Freaking stupid. Wasted 3 hours of my time getting there and coming back. Well, @ the very least, I got Escape + WWW tickets. Be jealous! :> My mum and sis were busily engaged in the funfair games. -.- Went home myself as I totally cannot stand the noise. Online + TV for the whole day. Imma sucha slacker. :/

So squad meeting again! ~
Discussed about POP stuffs. Went for lunch with Weisin and JV then went to TM. Sasa rock on! I wanna buy so many stuffs there luhhs! So I tried the mascara. Now then I know with mascara and no mascara got difference one lehxzc. LOL. Saw a couple thr and me and weisin went stalking ! LOL. Saw freaking loads of stuffs I wanna buy, but too bad, no monehh. :((

Peeks ! ^^

Jonathan the face like watching xxxx. LOL.

My les partner. :> ROFL.

Papparazzi for that day. - JV and WS caught in action ! >:( JV STEAL MY PARTNER!

Can you see a couple in thr ? LOL!

我哪里都不会去，就站在这里等着你。

Ohh whatever.

2010-06-06T23:29:00.002+08:00

Nothing to blog about.

Will blog tmr.

Bai.♥
Miss me. :>

就讓我僞裝, 我嘴角不屑;

2010-06-06T00:02:00.001+08:00

我是乎也感觉到自己的生命到了顶点。

梦境与现实的差距,
永远都是白昼与黑夜的距离,
看似紧挨着,但却没有交集...

梦境里可以实现很多现实无法达到的事情,
我们渴望美丽的梦...
而你我只是现实中的凡人...
我们无力改变...
我们有的就是面对...

BV bazaar today.
EPIC FAIL.

Look @ how empty is the dance floor? ROFL.
But who cares? As long as we earn our entrance fee.
The snowmens was okay, finished selling everything.
Camwhored with weisin & talked nonsense with aishah.
Aishah's sister damn cute uhs !
And she know my name!
Yay, I'm famous. (In a wrong way) xPP
Just now Sudden sugar rush !
Had like Lollipop, cupcake, cotton candy, Justea, waffle + ice cream + potong ice cream + oreos and a lil vanilla ice cream.
OMG. I am gonna get diabetes soon !

Now BV bazaar is over,
Hell is coming soon ~

And since our Disco theme this year is masquerade,

Ahh, My darling Show. :3

本来，我为了快乐去娱乐，却变成了不快乐，我真的令人太失望了。

我累了。

2010-06-03T22:41:00.000+08:00

心裡的疲倦比發燒暈眩比頭痛烈
我不愛爭辯
腦海卻默默決定一切。。。

WS and JV came to my house today.
Make snowmen and now, I am totally sick of chocolates. The sight of it makes me wanna vomit. :X WS was messing around with the faces. LOL. And some totally failed! :P Was messing around the kitchen with WS's scandal. LOL! Was called back to the school because of some super "good" people who obviously wanna find trouble. -.- So, turned out me, JV and WS 'dabao' Maggie Mee and eat while walking. Super funny ! It's like 3 person eating maggie mee and standing in a straight row like traffic light. ROFL. So in the end, help WS with the banners and played around with the glitter.

Super pissed off ju nao. :X
Some fucking people not happy only know how to complain, find teachers lor. Please, learn independence, solve problems YOURSELF. -_-

& Aiya, I don't give a damn anymore. Since she's that 'good', I have nothing to say. 老娘我不管了！

不管我说什么，
做什么，
我都是错的，
我不管了，
因为我累了，倦了，放弃了。

“爱与不爱重叠的灰色地带，像黑夜与白天交界的混沌时候，失眠的人等着天亮，却又害怕天亮。然而，天终于是要亮的，不管失眠一夜的人，曾经有过多少挣扎。”

Shooting ROCKS ! :B

2010-05-30T12:41:00.000+08:00

Yay, see me on TV again. (As a calefare!) LOL.

So... Went back to school to film school scenes for this show called 大鼓与小鼓 if I'm not wrong. I was sitting near the main casts and I was hearing them 'quarrel' and joking with each other. Funny to the max ! xD But the whole time I was hearing the 导演 say cut!, then retake again. :X Okay, he was damn cute please. xP (YongWen know who this is) WAHAHAS. LOL. Anws, I got owned by the 导演. >_< Got one shot got my face and I was hugging on to my bag and he was like "小妹，你书包没有一百万" and the whole class went laughing. Ps sia! Another one is we suppose to act as passer-bys and I didn't get to walk because one of staffs say I got 坏脸,which means paikia lah. :X I don't look like one okay ! But everybody insisted that I look like one. LOL. So... While waiting for our scenes again, went to play ABC and murderer with the rest. The Epic moments ! :

- Got hit by Hsien Loong. Freaking pain lahhs ! But not as pain as Ji Song's!

- I suggested to hit the face if kena during ABC ! Then everybody will become 猪头 then even your mum cannot recognized you. LOL.

- Darren wanna revenge me by hitting me damn hard during ABC, so I was like "you wait, I will let you hit yourself!" and I shifted the hands when he wanna whack, so too bad, he slapped his hands himself ! :P

- Xu Dong was singing Lady Gaga's bad romance in a gay way!

- Epic phail during Murderer ! The Murderer was sitting beside me and I didn't know ! And I somemore still cannot get it right until the last one ! LOL. (Somemore I in NPCC uhs!) 丢脸！

- Everybody's hand was red alr ! xDD

So during the whole time, quite slack uhs.
Still got $ earn, not bad uhs.
Hope got more days ! Seriously,
It's damn damn fun luhhs !
Main casts was funny when they are not acting !
I kept giggling !
And don't really have alot of my scenes lurhs, so I was quite slack. :X

No peeks,
Lazyy upload. LOL.
Byyees.

舞法舞天演唱会好看惨了! (Althou i neh watch xP)

2010-05-25T21:57:00.002+08:00

Supz people, 我回来啦! I have a fruitful week last week. LOL! Shall start blogging from last thursday onwards... So thursday we have our Heritage Trail to Singapore River, it wasn't raining, but it was damn hot. :X Went around with the facilitators and find places. We got free slurpee at one of the stations. xP Quite fun luhs, talked about some damn funny stuffs. Was ROFL-ing the whole time. xD I love the boat thingy the most ! Super funny to the max ! I attempt to eat Wiratha, and I attempt to push Aishah down the SG river. LOL!

Okay, let's jump to SUNDAY ! :D

Woke up damn early to wake Tiffany up. So we met and went to buy my Pandan Cake for SHOW LUO and 打包 snacks over to GP for lunch and dinner. MRT-ed there and went to Popular to buy his album 1st. (我买了两张！xD) Now broke like shyt. >_< So started queueing and make the banners as we have like 7 to 8 hours more before the autograph session starts. Play 'snap' awhile and 是热到极点啊! Cannot tahan and bought slurpee. Slack & slack until they annouced SHOW LUO is going to arrive ! So everyone in front of us stood up and totally blocked my view. -.- Somemore take banner block and stand on the barrier siol! So went he was singing 爱疯头, I only can hear him sing, cannot see him. -.- But who cares, everybody was like 你推我挤 but thanks to tiffany's good pushing skills, we manage to get our album signed like around 8. Met jac and her friends and we MRT-ed home after that. Funny conversation on the MRT also. xD I was SHOW LUO highing after that lahhs !

I was like " OMFGOMFGOMFG ! I see show luo close up ! OMFGOMFGOMFG ! I shoke hands with him ! OMFGOMFGOMFG ! Show Luo Smiled @ me ! " LOL! "

School next day and I was telling how handsome and flawless Show Luo is ! LOL! xD and Hui Fang insisted that I didn't wash my hand because I shoke Show's Hand ! LOL! The guys was treating me like some super crazy fans girl lahs ! And Jolene was arguing with me whether xiaogui or Show Luo is more handsome. xP And Hanson was singing 个中强手! xDxD

(P/S : 舞法舞天演唱会好看惨了! (Althou i neh watch xP) )

Some photos to feed you all :

当我们刚到时... (Just arrive...)
吃的。。。应为怕出不去，所以买了零食，吃到都怕了! >_< 达浪 ! xD
While doing the banner... 超乱的!End product : 我和tiffany做的板板! 送给小祥了!

Random shot ! 拍照！ Here comes the MC ! - DJ. 主角来咯！- 罗志祥！
After 100++ shots where all the people infront with their banners blocking,我终于拍到啦! ROFL. He was singing 爱疯头! :)

Yay, my autographed album + lyrics book! :D:D 2 different one okay ! :D

The damn handsome postcards ! -nosebleed- :P

2010-05-19T19:49:00.000+08:00

我好几次都想放弃所有这一切，
可是我不得不这么努力，
因为我不能让爱我的人伤心。
我何尝不想考好，
可是上苍就是这样，
我又有什么办法呢？
谁说我没有努力呢？
为了不让我爸妈失望，
我比谁都努力、用心。
那些数学习题，
那幕我背书的样子，
为什么你就是没有看到。
可是老师看不到我的努力，
家长看不到我的拼命。
我并不奢望每个人都能理解我的苦心，
可也不能把我的苦心视而不见，
这还不要紧，
还冷嘲热讽。
在人与人之间好像就没有关怀，
没有温暖似的。
成绩就是一切！
老师总是这样认为，
虽然没有说出口，
可是那样恶心的举动谁会看不出来呢？
我想放弃，可是我不能，
只剩半年了，忍一忍就会过去了。

他们说，生日，应该是快乐的。

2010-05-13T13:41:00.015+08:00

HAPPY BIRTHDAY FANNY !

YOU'RE 15.

ROFL !

Okay firstly, Thanks to those who wish me happy birthday either via message or facebook or my face. ROFL !

Shall go by sequence :
♥ ShiHui (1 day earlier xD)
♥ JiaYu!
♥ Shan Leong Sir!
♥ Swee Yik Sir!
♥ Jievanda!
♥ Wen Jing!
♥ Winni!
♥ Shi Yun!
♥ Zi Ran!
♥ Tiffany!
♥ Cavan!
♥ Yue Rong!
♥ Heena!
♥ Geraldine!
♥ Weisin !
♥ Liana!
♥ Siti!
♥ Lynn!
♥ Jasmine!
♥ Aishah!
♥ Hanson!
♥ William!
♥ Gary!
♥ Eugene Choy? From fb. ROFL!
♥ Phelicia!
♥ Agnes.C !
♥ Irfan!
♥ Priscelia Chan-Introspective Pris (FB) !
♥ Kyaw!
♥ Hin Nge!
♥ Amalina!
♥ Shirleen!
♥ Eric sir!
♥ Firdaus sir!
♥ Fu Hao!
♥ Jun Hong !
♥ Irene !
♥ Joshua! (Ah woon ? :o)
♥ Nameerah Noordin! (fb)
♥ Raymond!
♥ Matthieu! (fb)
♥ Wei Jie! (fb)
♥ Yee Chin! (fb)
♥ Mariam!
♥ Charmaine!
♥ XinYing!
♥ Joie!
♥ Kok Hwee! (fb)
♥ Amber! (fb)
♥ Eric!
♥ Nooraini Maam !
♥ Dwi!
♥ Sin Yue!
♥ Benjamin!
♥ Melissa!
♥ Syahirah!

And for presents :
♥ Tiffany & Lynn!
♥ Weisin & Jievanda!
♥ Hui Fang !
♥ Zi Ran!

Tiffany and Lynn came one day earlier to give me my presents but I wasn't @ home. SO SORRY ! >_<

AND Thanks to JV too ! :DD

Tada! My presents ! xP

» K-Box with friends on birthday ! ^^ (Exams ends on my birthday! :D)
» Get @ least 20 birthday message this year. (Last year only got 12. :X)
» Get a friendship scrapbook as birthday present ? :o (I bet I will cry if I receive one. xD)
» Get @ least 3 birthday card. (I don't know why, but I just love receiving them. LOL.) (I got 2 letters from Tiffany & 1 from Huifang)
» ALOT of birthday wishes spams on my facebook wall on my birthday ! (At least 50 ! xD )
» ALOT ALOT of presents ! (who doesn't want ? LOL!) xD
» Get @ least 3As without failing any subjects for MYE. :X
» Get a birthday message from GB! :DDDD (If you know who this is. xD)
» ALOT ALOT OF SHOW LUO/PINK stuffs as presents! (I will scream !!! xP) (GOT ALOT OF PINK ONE!)
» Lastly, give me a birthday cake. :P

Okay, so those in bold are those I got, in italic means never get. :(

Freaking lazy to post. ROFL ! So yeahs, just to update cause it's my birthday today ! xDD

今天是我的生日，
按道理我应该很高兴的，
可是我却怎么也高兴不起来。
今天也有很多的人给我送来祝福，送我礼物，
可是我没法开心，
我的朋友虽然都记得我的生日，
可是不像往年，他们都会陪我去庆祝，
今年的今天，明明说好了，要一起去庆祝，
却全部都在最后一刻说不要去了。。。

虽然爸妈的礼物送到，
却不像往年，有蛋糕，有蜡烛，
记得往年我过生日时，真的好开心。
可是，我想我再也不会有以前那种回忆了...

FML. Everything's screwed. :X

2010-05-06T19:03:00.000+08:00

事情如果那麽簡單那就好了,
想讓自己不見,
瞬間就統統消滅,
荒蕪公路,
無人的漂泊,
寂寞海嘯,
把我捲走,
学生的成绩优异，就一定能决定一切吗？
就一定可以改变人生吗？
假如，学生的成绩很差，
就意味着不能在这个社会上有自己的一片蓝天吗？
就一定是个没用的人吗？
就一定没有前途吗?
为什么不看看我的长处呢？
哈，
或许我没有。
成绩其实就是一切。
不管是现在，还是将来。
我们的父母只会看到我们的成绩，其他的再怎么出色都是浮云。
为什么生活总是很累？
痛苦的生活何时是头？

If you did not do it, why bother to talk about it ?
And I'm not talking bout you.
so just shuddup.
Thanks.

2010-04-29T16:27:00.001+08:00

Stats About Fanny
Fanny 사랑 has 308 friends. 107 of them are male, 167 are female, and 34 are confused about their gender.

Based on her Facebook profile, Fanny has a 82% chance of getting married and is likely to have 4 children over her reproductive years. She will make about $14,964,386 in her life and pay $4,489,316 in taxes.

In Fanny's life, she will have spent 24 years sleeping, and 682 hours on the toilet. She will probably live to be about 95 years old. 278 people will attend her funeral with 10 of them expecting some kind of inheritance.

I was ROFL-ing after I do this quiz on fb. Eys, I can live for quite long lehxzx, 95 years old. LOL. So today, mood aren't v.good. People attitude here and there, teachers scold here and there, oh whatever. Used to it alr. 习惯就好... Totally no mood to study. -.-

Ooh, so ytd, I kena by MC.

Me : - knock on door- good morning MC.
MC : *shouted* how long have you been standing outside girl?
Me : *Cannot hear properly* huh ?
MC : Don't huh at me!!!! how long have you been standing outside?
Me : urms, 1 min ? 1 sec ?
MC : okay, so what's the problem ?
Me : Uhhs, LM need to go to the dentist.
MC : Can't you see she's busy ? Tell the dentist she will go later.
Me : okayy.. -.-

Gahs.
She's telling me she has the manners with this kind of tone ? -.-
And I greeted her when she didn't even greet me back. -.-

Don't complain that you are alone, you are the one who bring it upon yourself.

Fanny's autobiography!

2010-04-27T20:11:00.001+08:00

Rules:
Once you've been tagged, Fill this out IN YOUR OWN WORDS and repost as, "_____ Autobiography" ...
And use your own answers, not anyone else's.

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1. Where did you take your facebook profile pic?
At the MRT station. LOL.

2. What exactly are you wearing right now?
2E1's class tee & FBT shorts.

3. What is your current problem?
ALOT. :X

4. What makes you happy most?
Watching YLBFB. :DD

5. What's the name of the song that you're listening to?
习惯就好 - 罗志祥

6. Any celeb you would marry?
SHOW LUO :DDD

7. Name some one/persons with the same birthday as you:
No one I know. Unless you ask me whose birthday is near to mine. :P LOL.

8. Ever sang in front of a large audience?
Nuu. But I always sang aloud at home. xDD

9. Has anyone ever said you looked like a celebrity?
Nahs.

10. Do you still watch kiddy movies or kiddie TV shows?
Doraemon counted ? LOL.

11. Do you speak any other languages than English?
Chinese, dialects ? :o

12. Has anyone you've been really close passed away?
Yes. :X

13. Do you ever watch MTV?
Don't think soo.

14. What's something that really annoys you?
Bitches and Bastards -.-

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Chapter 1
1. Middle name: Ny ? LOL. FanNy Kwek
2. Nickname(s): FanFan
3. Eye color: Black
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Chapter 2
1. Do you get along with your parent(s): okay okay bahhs.
2.Are your parents married/separated/divorced?: Married

Chapter 3: Favorites
1. Ice Cream: Cookie and cream!
2. Season: Summer
3. Shampoo/conditioner : That pink pink shampoo. Don't know what brand. LOL>
4. Favorite Thing: Everything that belongs to me. :DD

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Chapter 4: Do You..
1. Dance in the shower?
Sing yes. Dance no. LOL!

2. Do you write on your hand?
Yeahs! Vandalising I call it. LOL.

3. Call people back?
Maybe ?

4. Believe in God?
Kinda.

5. Any bad habits?
ALOT !!!

Quote from yesterday:
"omgg, I'm so not gonna eat this week! Going to get that hoodie ! "

6. Any mental health issues:
YES. ALOT ! I'm damn unhealthy. :PP

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Chapter 5: Have You..
1. Sprained stuff: duhh.
2. Had physical therapy: Think so.
3. Gotten stitches?: Noo.
4. taken painkillers: Yes
5. Gone scuba diving or snorkeling: Nuu way. I hate water.
6. Thrown up at the dentist: Wtf ? LOL.
7. Sworn in front of your parents?: once or twice. Don't dare to. -.-
8. Had detention?: Less than thrice in my life time. I'm a good girl. :DD

Chapter 6: Who/What was the last
1. Movie(s): Kidnappers.
2. Three people who texted you: Lynn, kyaw, hui fang.
3. Person you called: I seldom call. :X
4. Person you hugged: My teddy bear.
6. Person you talked to on MSN?: ALOT.
7. Thing you touched?: My keyboard. :DD
8. Thing you ate?: My mum's dishes.
9. Thing you drank: Orange juice.
10. Thing you said: wait awhile ah.
11. Person you kissed: no one
12. Place you went: my house
13. Friend you saw: None @ the moment. LOL.

NOW TAG 20 PEOPLE! AND GET THEM TO DO THE SAME.
Lazyy to tag.
Suit yourself. :DD

EL + CL paper 1.

2010-04-26T20:53:00.002+08:00

Yups, I'm back from a total of 3 hours paper today. EL + CL paper 1. English paper I guess it was okay, just hope that all my tenses would be alright. :X For chinese paper, it's harder than the higher chinese one. -.- And I was like telling everyone that I cfm not doing 报章报道 and 公函 but in the end I did both. LOL. The topics are like rubbish lurhs, what 五天制, what 理财观念, these topics v.hard to elaborate lor. So in the end chose 报章报道 to do. Wrote a total of 2 page and a half page for both. Hopefully I don't go out of point for both EL and CL. :o

But lucky we had a 2 hours break in between, if not I guess I will collapse by the end of the the 2 papers. So, went out to 7 Eleven with Lynn to buy strepsils for her sore throat and got myself some crackers. Then went back to study format for letter writing.

Went to 7 Eleven with HF and SY as SY wanna buy mashed potato. Everyone is saying that she looks like potato. LOL!!! Bought my Teens Magazine as there is Alien Huang's poster. :DD Now I have both Show Luo and Alien Huang on my walls♥. WAHAHAS. LOL. Went home but met my my mum downstairs and I asked her to treat me to macs cause I spent my money on the magazine alr. xD

Have been spending too much money on blogshopping alr siol ! Bought damn loads of stuffs !

- Hello Kitty Postman wallet.
- Donald Duck Tee
- Star transparent bag.
- Black collar top.

Althou not really alot lurh, but the money I spent is really too much !

Saw this hoodie while blogshopping, totally fall in ♥ with it !

I like both yellow and pink, which one do you think I should get ?

The two hot guys in my bedroom. *nosebleed* LOL!

And lastly, this video is for XinYing. ^^

画虎画皮难画骨，知人知面不知心... ;

2010-04-24T12:28:00.005+08:00

你面无表情的嘴角,像在嘲笑我的胡闹...
I almost died on monday ! :X Had 2.4km early in the morning. CMI during assembly. Thanks Mdm Teo for helping me. ^^ Then Chinese compo test after that. Then now, My muscle is aching like what. :X Was practicing my standard board jump at home by putting the measuring tape on the floor and started swinging around and jumping like crazy. (Okay, I knew it was plain retarded.) And my highest record was only like 150 ++ ? :X Fail alr lahh ! And monday is the starting of MYE alr.

» 26 April, Mon - EL paper 1 + CL paper 1.
» 27 April, Tues - EL paper 2, SS paper.
» 6 May, Thurs - CL paper 2, E-Maths paper 2.
» 7 May, Fri - CL listening Compre.
» 10 May, Mon - Science Physics + E-maths paper 1.
» 12 May, Wed - Science Chem
» 13 May, thursday - F&N (MY BIRTHDAY ! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDD!)

okay, so ytd was the NPCC meeting for BV bazaar. Epic fail. :X (Don't blame me for saying that.) Well, the only thing I can say is, not everyone will agree to an idea, but since most of the planning are already done on that idea, might as well do it to the best right ? No point complaining as it will do nothing. BBT-ed with weisin and jv and went home after meeting.
Same timing, same words. :o

And tada, my F&N practical. :D

我果然猜的没错，
朋友对你来说，只是一群让你给脸色的人，
他对你来说，才是最重要的人。
画虎画皮难画骨，知人知面不知心... ;

Birthday countdown!

2010-04-18T21:40:00.003+08:00

習慣就好;

Countdown, 25 more days to my birthday.♥

LOL.
My mum and my sister already gave me my present.
Which is like damn early?! D:
Shall not reveal what they gave until 13 May. ;D
Anws, scroll down for something ! :D

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Okay, I know I damn boliao, but I'm going to write my birthday wishes here. ^^ And if you scroll down, you are going to fulfill my wishes! WAHAHAHAS. xP

» K-Box with friends on birthday ! ^^ (Exams ends on my birthday! :D)
» Get @ least 20 birthday message this year. (Last year only got 12. :X)
» Get a friendship scrapbook as birthday present ? :o (I bet I will cry if I receive one. xD)
» Get @ least 3 birthday card. (I don't know why, but I just love receiving them. LOL.)
» ALOT of birthday wishes spams on my facebook wall on my birthday ! (At least 50 ! xD )
» ALOT ALOT of presents ! (who doesn't want ? LOL!) xD
» Get @ least 3As without failing any subjects for MYE. :X
» Get a birthday message from GB! :DDDD (If you know who this is. xD)
» ALOT ALOT OF SHOW LUO/PINK stuffs as presents! (I will scream !!! xP)
» Lastly, give me a birthday cake. :P

Those in pink are those I want most. Hahas ! So people, you know what to do right? xD *Insert thick-skinned face* LOL.

Okay.
So that's about it.
Tmr will be a damn busy day for me.
Tmr must bring so many things to school. Argh, Taxi please. -.-
Yay, daddy gave me money to take taxi. :D

2010-04-17T14:35:00.000+08:00

& once again, a smile doesn't always mean you're happy. sometimes, it's a beautiful disguise hiding the things left unsaid...

This week is darn boring luhs.
Didn't bother to blog. ;X
The only fun day is on Thurs when we get our new uniform.

Got onto the mini van and everyone started sleep besides me, syahirah and both aishah.
So I started snapping photos of the guys sleeping !
I was ROFL-ing the whole time with the photos ! xD
And I ZOOMED the peeks somemore. LOL.
Okay, I knew I was damn bad. :P

Reached &
Being the 1st batch to get our uniforms,
we were the slowest group. LOL.

Mdm Koh : Wah, you all shopping ah ?! Faster lah ! Behind still got alot of people !

LOL. We girls mah, go shopping can go for 8 hours also not tired lehxzx. So must 慢慢来... xP

The CIs (isit?) were v.friendly ! :D

CI : What size you want ? (Talking to JV)
Me : Size 100 ! xD
CI: Okay!
Girls : ROFL ! LOL!

Choose choose choose than went for lunch @ HTA cafe.
Bought sandwiches and watched TV. Kept laughing & laughing. LOL!
Accompanied Wei Sin to the toilet and I was pretending to make it a 'HIGH CLASS' trip. xD
She was scolding nugget (her standard phrase) all the time. xP

Slept awhile and it was time to go back.
Got onto the smaller van again and same case, most of them was sleeping beside me, farhan and a guy(dunno what name) :X
Then Farhan and the guy kept turning around to see who is sleeping.
Irritating ttm ! So I stared @ them & they turned back. :X

Half way thru the trip, Joel & Ying Zhou started playing the funny edition of 童话 and I was like WTH?!
They taught Farhan chinese too. LOL.

Farhan : eh, what is 红内衣?
Joel : It's red underwear.
Farhan : ooh ! 你红内衣啊! (pointing to me)
Me : LOL. wait, 红内衣 I thought is the top one ?
Joel : Oh shyt ! I taught the wrong thing !!!
Me : LOL! Eh ! Don't anyhow teach him lei ! Later he go school anyhow say.
Farhan : Ehh, how to say pervert in english ?
Ying Zhou : 色.
Farhan : (turning to shan leong sir) SIR ! (sounds like 色)
Those who heard : ROFL LOL ! xD Funny ttm !

Went home with Hui Fang after that.
This week is really damn boring luh.
Nth much. ;X

你最爱的，往往没有选择你；

最爱你的，往往不是你最爱的；
而最长久的，偏偏不是你最爱也不是最爱你的...

2010-04-14T20:03:00.000+08:00

I simply love this picture! ^o^

Enchanting Moments 2010.

2010-04-13T16:28:00.007+08:00

Enchanting Moments 2010...

I'm lazy to upload SOOO many pictures so I made them into 1. LOL. :P If you want those bigger ones, go to my facebook. (: Soo, went to Enchanting Moments ytd. Met Lynn earlier as she want to buy deodorant, then proceed to KFC. Didn't eat anything as I wasn't feeling hungry. Lynn ate while waiting for Lynn & Jesslyn. :X Took MRT to Raffles Place and we were camwhoring on the MRT. (As you can see from the image above. LOL.) Then met Mr Phoa there. He wear until "DAMN formal" LOR. LOL. I kept commenting that his top is only $10. xD But he insisting that his top and jeans are from *ahem" and *ahem" brand. We know you are rich ! No need show off ! :P Reached there and it's so crowded! Everyone was soooooooooo formal ! :D Well, maybe not everyone, some of them are in their tees. o.o

Saw 'xxxxxx' and I went OMG-ing because HE LOOKS LIKE ALIEN HUANG AKA XIAOGUI ! hairstyle & everything ! And during the WHOLE concert, I was looking around for him and went I saw him, I will go "OMG ! It's XIAOGUI ! AHHHHHHH" LOL. But I have no interest for him lah. Haha. LOL. Saw 'xxxxxxxxx' and I went OMG-ing too because he looks like LIN XIAO BEI in Together. LOL. And blablabla and the concert started. Uhhs, overall not bad uhs. Just that some retards that jeered and disturbed makes my mood goes down... -.- The PAs are good, the flashmob by drama club was cute, and everything is so perfect! *wink* Zhi Jie was so cuteeeeee ! Esp when he danced nobody! (If you don't know who is he, he's the one who act as Jiang Jun in 书包太重)The most high part is the Nobody part ! I like I like ! :D

Nobody dance :D

MRT-ed home after that.
SLEPT IMMEDIATELY. LOL.
kthxbye! :X

<---!Editted--->
OMG,
I got shocked after reading this.

"Blue M&M's may be able to treat spinal injuries! Side affect? Blue skin."

Researchers have been testing the effects of a compound called "Brilliant Blue G" on lab rats. The compound is a blue dye found in blue M&M's that give them their distinctive color.

The researchers injected rats with spinal injuries with Brilliant Blue G. The compound improved recovery and reduced the lesions that came along with the injury. The way it worked is that the compound blocks another chemical that causes more cell damage during an injury, thus reducing the "secondary spinal cord damage" that the chemical causes. The result? The rats with spinal injuries that received treatment with Brilliant Blue G were able to walk again, while the control group rats that weren't treated were not.

Now, before you start picking out blue M&M's to put into your first aid kit, it's important to note that the dye was only effective 15 minutes after sustaining the injury, it has to be absorbed intravenously, and one of the side effects is that the rats' skin turned blue.

LOL. OMG! so cool right ?!

<---!Editted--->

(P/S : Exactly in 1 month, I will be 15 year old ! ^^)

你的目光，不会我身上停留,

你的微笑，对象绝对不会是我,

你的爱，给的不会是我,

你的幸福，

我找不到。

Shopping is the best cure.

2010-04-11T21:51:00.001+08:00

Sup peoples !
I'm back from shopping ! :B
I've shopped from 11am to 8pm.
From Orchard to Paya Lebar to Tampines.
Went to Orchard with Hui Fang and Shi Yun.
Then to Paya Lebar & Tampines with Tiffany, Lynn & Jesslyn.
And I've spent over $40 ++ including my mum's present from Etude House.
Bought her hand lotion which cost a bomb. LOL.
But she say its good to use. ^^
Shall start saving up again.
EM burnt a hole in my pocket. :X
But I'm damn sastified ! Hahas!
First time buy until so shiok! xD

Today went to TM with Tiffany.
Tiffany got her shoes and I got my bag.
My bag's shiny ! *Blingbling*
Proceed on to Urban Write and was playing around the soccer thingy with Tiffany.
LOL.
We look like 2 small kids playing lah.
And I lost to Tiffany. :X
4-2. D:
I suck @ soccer even though it's not the real game. LOL.
Ooh,
before that, went to buy dress, tube + belt with my mum.
Which in total cost $45.
Thanks mummy for helping me to pay. :B
Hahas.
Looking forward to tmr eys. :D
kthxbye !

gonecase.

2010-04-09T21:55:00.002+08:00

GONECASE.

goodluck to me. :X

Chemistry.

2010-04-09T21:53:00.001+08:00

Today thought Mdm Ho will be coming for lesson.
In the end 1st period, Eric Sir came in and relief us.
He teached us Chemistry !
I just realise that every teacher now damn pro siaa, no matter which subject they can also teach !

Okay, then something very funny happened :
Eric Sir : Alright class, please turn to page ... Eh, page what ah?
Me : Which topic you teaching ?
Eric Sir : Eh, I also don't know which topic I teaching lehxzx.
Me : LOL.

then the 2nd part is when MeiQi try to find me and ask my about the Physics Homework :
Me : Aiya, 我不会做啦! -close book then put pen on top of book-
Eric Sir : 为什么不会做?!
Me : 就是不会做啦!
Eric Sir : 不会做就不要做啦!
Me : 对啦，所以我没做吗!
Eric Sir : 对! 不要做!
Me ：...

AHH.
I'm going to flunk my Mid Year.
GONECASE.
BYES.
Totally random. :B

多喜欢你从来不会说, 多在乎你到底懂不懂... ;

D:

2010-04-08T12:48:00.000+08:00

Blogging from school nao.
Finally get a chance to touch school's comp. :X (I LOVE THE SCHOOL's KEYBOARD)
Was told to do some ultra boring survey.
Everything is about "DOES YOUR ENGLISH TEACHER blablabla"
Was randomly filling up with 'sometimes', 'seldom' and 'often' LOL.

Gahs,
So many teachers were absent nowadays...
And they said we cannot catch up. @_@
Oh whatever.

Yesterday, today & tomorrow.

2010-04-07T20:26:00.003+08:00

Things that happened :

▪ Enchanting moment tickets out ! Thanks Lynn for 'blanja-ing' to Enchanting Moments ! ^^
▪ Inline Skating today. Thanks Hui Fang, Shi Yun, Mei Qi for helping me during today's inline skating ! :B (I managed to stand and 'skate' myself!) :P
▪ English & maths deproving ! >:(
▪ Science kinda improved. :o

Things that are going to happen :

▪ Going to buy my uniform cover. (I spoilt like 4 to 6 of them in 2 years @.@)
▪ Campcraft test on Friday. :X
▪ Shopping with Lynn on Saturday. (Shall get myself some clothings again!)
▪ Enchanting Moments on Monday.
▪ Collection of uniform on Thursday.
▪ MYE in 19 day's time. (AHHS ! MY 4As!!!)
▪ Continue to see him everyday. ^^ (Hahas, hopefully!)

Inclined skating was fun today ! :B But I was screaming madly like a crazy women cause I can't balance myself already and Mei Qi kept disturbing me ! But I managed to stand and 'baby walk'. LOL. Going out with Lynn on Saturday to buy her dress for Enchanting Moments and maybe I shall buyself some too. :P Kinda looking forward to Enchanting Moments. Haha!

Well,
That's about it.
Busy ays. :X

Skin Changed, Link Changed.

2010-04-06T20:46:00.001+08:00

Gahs.
Don't ask much.
Just relink. ^^

If loving you was a crime...

2010-04-01T23:43:00.001+08:00

If loving you was a crime...

喜欢你,才会装作不在乎你,你知道吗，你明白吗,

每次都在搜索你的背影,但每次与你相遇都要装作不在乎你,因为不想让你感到我是刻意制造和你相遇的机会,

喜欢你,才会装做不喜欢你,在乎你,才会装做不在乎你.

外観は、図、教育、かどうか
彼女よりも私はありません。
感じ
それは彼女は彼が好きだった。
そして彼は、彼が好き
に、是非
または、それを放棄する
それ以外の場合彼らは悲しいです。:,(

像是刺猬般防范，伪装的勇敢，不轻易让你看穿...

2010-03-27T14:41:00.002+08:00

Imma listening to 罗志祥's song now and imma super addicted to them ! Freaking nice okay ! No wonder his album sold finished so fast. Didn't update alot this year, so shall summarized everything that happen during a few weeks back, or a few months you can say.

- Alice in Wonderland with Lynn & Jesslyn. Freaking nice ! *Not 3D*

- Visited Mint Museum & Art Museum for English project with HuiFang, Shi Yun & Mei Qi. Mint museum rocks my socks !

- Dinner with Joshua for with Birthday Celebration. Quite fun! :B

- NPCC cross country.

- Kidnappers with family. Damn nice also ! Highly Recommended!

YADADODABOOLALA!

And my time flew just like that ~ LOL!

Started off this week with ALOT I really meant alot of scoldings from the teachers, saying that our attitude suckshit. oviously the teachers didn't say that lah, but they meant that. And they spent like 2/3 of the period scolding us and in the end, said we don't have time to go through everything.

And when you don't have time to go through everything,
= Not good results (self-studying won't make you understand everything)
= scoldings again.

It's like a cycle lah.

Eh like hello ?!,

is you all spent the time scolding okay.

So,

Conclusion : Teachers should have just ignore or chase those few ~~fucking~~ bastards out of the class who just wanted to waste OUR time to study & learn.

Okay whatever.

I shall spam you all with overdue photos that is in my phone for a long time alr...

The game I was playing in Lynn's phone. It's call Mi Lu Lu dan or something like that if I'm not wrong. LOL.

Inter-class floorball ~

Hand painting done by Win Ni.

Me with Lynn & Jesslyn!

The above pictures is taken today, For more, please visit my facebook. ^^

kthxbye !

Be strong because things will get better.

2010-03-19T19:10:00.000+08:00

Because of you, I knew love...

*Waves* Super pissed off today during the cross country.

Password protected. Not for you to read.

Now feeling much better after letting my anger out. ^^

Now, for my own buying list :

Fahrenheit smiley ring - $5.50
GuiGui's star necklace - $7.50
~~Bangle from Century Square - $3.90~~
Hello Kitty pencil case from Artbox - $15.00
~~Star Transparent bag from Skyblue spree - $17.24~~
~~Hello Kitty postman wallet from spree - $11.80~~
Show Luo's album 舞法舞天 - $29.00
Pink 'S' cap from spree. - $11.00

Just bought the star transparent bag I want. Bought the black one. Hope won't oos, if not I will need to get the white one. :X Bought the hello kitty postman wallet too, but the shop oos, so now looking for another shop that still sells it. :X Wl, hope got stock sia. :( And I've so many things I wanna buy. @.@ Must start saving up alr!

(P/S : Click on my nuffnang ads lehxzx ! )
kthxbye.

Project meet up & Dinner with Josh.

2010-03-17T00:13:00.000+08:00

Dinner with Joshua. (:

Celebrated Josh's 21st Birthday with the FC members @ Pasta De Waraku. My first meeting with them and they were friendly peoples. xD Wrote birthday messages on the board before he came. He was sitting next to Jac and she was blushing like mad ! Ordered and food came and blablabla. Jac sabo-ed me lor, go tell Joshua I make the card for him. I intended not to give cause it's simply too ugly lahs! Shouldn't have told her about the card I made for him cause it's totally screwed up ! Then the FC members were chanting "拿出来，拿出来，拿出来" I no choice then take out to give. Very ps siaa. LOL. But must thanks Jac for helping me to let Joshua see the mirror effect thingy. Hahas. Birthday Cake was out after dinner and we sang birthday song for him. Had the cake and went out for photo-taking session. I finally got an individual photo with him ! xD Next target : Show Luo xD LOL. Shaked hand with him also. Very heartwarming 的感觉. LOL!!!! MRT-ed back with Jac cause she lived near me.

Was freaking tired today as before dinner, went to museums today for english project. Mint Museums rock my socks. The toys, the aircon, all rocks ! /M\ Took quite alot of photos today for both events. Hahas.

Now for photos :

(P/S: Still got loads more, But I'm lazy to upload. LOL.)

kthxbye!

March Camp 2010.

2010-03-15T10:59:00.000+08:00

March camp 2010.

Rocks your socks !

Didn't want to elaborate much cause I guess nobody is interested in reading a whole chunk of words. LOL. You just need to know that it rocks. Our group gotten the best group anws, and we got jars of jam as our prize. :/ But the peak is during the campfire. Super high ! xD Currently addicted to alot of songs because of that.

Just back from school for Maths Remedial, only 18 pupils turned up. How pro is that ? LOL. But like that also good lah, can concentrate better. xD Kena locked outside my house cause I never bring key and there is no one at home. Call home, no one answer. Call phone, no one answer. No choice but to wait for 30 minutes till my parents come back. -.-

Psst, Holidays is super packed with project meetups and online assessments... No time to blog alr ayes ! :(

Later going for NPCC meeting with Mr Jit.
(P/S : click on my nuffnang ads!)
kthxbye.

Camp ! :D

2010-03-09T19:26:00.000+08:00

Cuddly cuddle.

BooBoos. Back to post since I guess I will have not much time to post this year. :/ Camps, projects, CCAs. homework, exams ! Arghs. :X I still have a long list of things that are not done yet ! I'm gonna exlode sooon !!!! But who cares, just let it come one by one and goes one by one. (: And did I mentioned that I'm so looking forward to March Camp this year ? Not just because my march camp rocks, my groups rock ttm too ! xDxDxD And nightwalk this year for sec 3s will be ALONE. Pray god that I won't go missing as I'm not even sure where are the blocks and where is my left and my right. LOL. Commented on Eric sir's status just now and the whole thing was damn funny !

Ohmygod.

I guess I will be mad during march camp ! xD

And I guess it will be damn fun !

And I gotten my 罗生门 ! :D

Clear my wardrobe!

2010-03-07T12:16:00.001+08:00

PLEASE CLEAR MY WARDROBE!

All instocks. :)

Pay & get your items on the spot!

Donald duck top!

Tried on only once but doesn't suit me. ;(

Bought @ $15, Selling only @ $10. :)

Email me @ fannyloveshow@hotmail.com or leave a tag!

Icon Batch 1 - Sugar, Spice & everthing nice. (9 icons)

2010-03-07T12:12:00.000+08:00

My first batches of icons, titled Sugar, Spice & everthing nice.
Inspirations from flickr and weheartit.
Please right-click and upload to your own server.
Strictly NO hotlinking.
Thanks.
Enjoy !
xoxo.

Sugar, Spice & everthing nice ! (:

In your face. (:

2010-03-03T20:44:00.000+08:00

Yeahs, in your FACE.

Boos peoples.
Gotten back some results today.

English - A1, 75/100
Chinese - B3, 67/100
Maths - B4, 62.5/100
Combined Science - C6, 52.5/100
F&N - Haven't yet.
Combined Humanities - Haven't yet.

Although it isn't perfect, but I'm damn sastified with my results. I didn't expect my english to get an A1. :X Second in class. Jiayang you wait ! Just 1 more marks ! Hmph ! LOL. Chinese, top the class with a B3, actually expected to fail cause the paper is just so hard ! Gees. Getting top is so good. v.long never get top le. T_T Maths, improved 12 marks. I thought this time sure fail also, in the end, gotten back the paper and I shouted 'OMG I pass!' infront of Mr Cher and he 'cua tio' then the whole class went laughing. ROFL ! Combined Humans, still maintain lor, not much change from last year. But overall, I'm damn happy alr ! Actually thought all CMI lahhs ! Scare me. :X And this is the first time I chionged to study for exams siaa. Probably I just wanna prove them wrong ? :o

But anyways ! Went home with Lynn today and there was this sicko who was sitting infront of us at the bus stop and he was trying to hug a guy from Bedok View. That guy was trying to shoo him off, but that sicko continues. Didn't see it at first, until Lynn told me to look. I was damned freak out luhs, fearing that he will stalk us or something. LOL! Fastered chionged onto bus 35 and thought we could leave that sicko guy faster. In the end, he boarded the bus from the back door ! Me and Lynn the face totally changed lahs ! He was damn scary okay ! Throughout the whole bus journey, he was chanting loudly "I'm a homosexual" with his deep low voice. Totally freak us out can ?!?! Wanted to laugh but don't dare to. LOL !!! Went home after that.

CMI ! :(

2010-03-02T19:59:00.000+08:00

Reasons why I love you.

MIA-ed for quite a long time. due to common tests and competition. But after CCC, quite free alr ayes. But somehow missed CC training lehxzx. :X Anws, finished common tests and cmi alr lahs ! Common test 1 only need give until so hard mehxzx. Lucky this time round I got study, if not flunk even more ahs. But it's weird that I studied for tests - 3 hours for each paper. :/ But I guess in the end also cmi. Only got back my chem paper - 13/20. Not bad ayes. LOL! At least got pass right. I think my chinese this time round also CMI lahs ! Die liao Die liao ! :(

& alot of stuffs happened during CCC and it was damn fun that day ! Don't wanna elaborate so much cause Imm lazy. :P And I'm so gonna die during march camp cause I said something wrong ! :X And thanks Eric Sir for his bubbletea! (: And I found out something which makes me so sad! PssPss. LOL! And I think I mixed better with the sec 2s. -.- LOL!!!

Althou CC finished, there's still more competition waiting for me ! Story challenge competition, short film competition, and blablablas. :X Busy lahhs ! And studies are getting tougher and tougher ! Ahhhs ! Going mad soon ~ Lucky I weren't in 3E1, if not sumba will go mad ! LOL!

Off now.
Byees.

小黑，小白，小猪！

2010-02-25T17:06:00.000+08:00

I've no idea on what to write.
Quite emo nowadays. :X
But thanks to some people, they make my day !
Hahas.

First, I want to thanks 小白 Hui Fang, for lending me her listening ear, tolerating my lame jokes and always there for me. She's the one who helped me alot. Thanks 小白 ! ILY ! :D

Second, I want to thanks 小黑 Shi Yun, for letting me to disturb her ! Thanks for tolerating my lameness and irritating-ness ! She's the one who brought all the laughters! Thanks 小黑 ILY ! :D

Well, if don't know who's 小猪, it's me !
Cause I'm fat ! :D
LOL!

小黑 gave me that name and I love it! x)

Hahas.

And if you realise,

ShiYun 小黑 + HuiFang 小白 + me 小猪 = 黑白猪!

ROFL.

Back.

2010-02-22T19:26:00.000+08:00

I don't know why.
But after watching this 3 videos,
I've a feeling.
A mixed feeling.
A feeling I can't describe.
It makes me teared so badly.

"人生最大的悲哀莫过于心死." - 许老师

伤心，难过，心痛，
一切迹象表明，我们依然是凡人。
因为有爱，
因为在乎，
所以有痛，所以心痛；
既然懂得心痛，
那么生活依然充满希望。
不懂心痛，心也就死啦；
心死，就如行尸，
又岂会痛？

心痛的感觉，
不是文字所能表达。
但是痛哭却能表达心痛，
痛哭之后才能领悟人生。
哭吧，让我们学会珍惜；
哭吧，让我们学会包容。
每一次的心痛，
每一次的痛哭，
都能帮我们堆积起了靓丽的人生。

如果有一天你也会心痛，就让它痛吧；
如果有一天你也会感到痛心，那就哭吧。

我们是凡人，
总有一种爱让我们心痛。
心痛并不悲哀，
悲哀的是不懂心痛，
悲哀的是心已枯萎，
悲哀的是心已死去。

P.S : Decided not to close this blog, but there's still a private blog in lalaland. :>

2010-02-19T21:09:00.000+08:00

在一次失眠，躺在床上翻来覆去，

最终还是爬起来打开电脑。

想起这些天经历的所有所有，

好多的难堪与无奈,

我恨所有的人，

在这个肮脏的世界上，

生活在虚假的面容下，

做着另人做呕的事。

所有的人都是那么虚伪，

我终于变了，连自己也不再认识自己了,

在我的世界里从此不再会有快乐，只有悲伤，

不会有幸福，只有痛苦，

不会有爱情，只有背叛````````

我讨厌所有的人，

那另人做呕的表情,

真的很肮脏。

世界很肮脏，我该信谁，

就连自己最亲最亲的人都在置疑我。

不知道在这个世界，我还能相信谁。

我最信任的人也变得虚伪……

他们都背叛了我，

我被世界遗弃的远方。

所有的人都在欺骗我。

这个世界欺骗了我，

自己就只会自我毁灭。

自我堕落，自我颓废……

呵呵……

到后来我还是哭了。

我告诉你，

是应为我信任你，

相信你，

我迟疑了一下，

想说到底要不要告诉你，

想说要不要再次把我的信任交个你，

最后，我再次把他交给了你，

希望你不会背叛我，

不会把它给毁了。

可是，

我错了。

我告诉你，

不是让你去告诉她的，

是希望你会了解我的感受。

哈哈。

我真是太天真了。

被背叛了一次，

还没得到教训吗 ?

为什么还那么轻易相信别人 ?

我恨我自己。

早知你会站在她那边，
我就不会浪费时间和口水和你诉苦了。
我恨我自己。

2010-02-18T21:23:00.000+08:00

渐渐被人遗忘的时候，

请接受现实吧，

后果是谁人都无法更改的，

但在某些人心里，

你们，

永远都是那个，

曾被熟记于心，

离去后无法忘却的人，

人生，

从学会接受被遗忘开始。

珍惜的，只有曾经的感觉...

虽然一切都过去了，

可是我还是无法把过去忘掉，

把那些伤人的回忆抹掉，

把那曾经发生过的一切，从脑里删掉。

我想从0开始，

可是，我能吗？

人類如果沒有心臟那就好了，
受傷不會流血，
悲傷也不會流淚，
事情如果那麽簡單那就好了，
想讓自己不見，
瞬間就統統消滅，
那么我就不用那么痛苦了.

2010-02-12T23:03:00.000+08:00

Fanny is flooded with sweets today !

Thanks Jolene, ZhangHao, HuiFang, WenJing, Yong Wen, Crystal ! :D

ILY ~~~

I'm like so busy nowadays lahs. Projects, CCA, homework and blablablas. Just simply posted some simple stuffs to keep my blog alive. Went shopping for PE project stuffs just now with HuiFang and she came to my house to do the project. Loads of super funny things happened today and HuiFang and me was laughing like mad all along ! xD Esp. during the CNY concert ! xP

I gave up on love.

I'm now officially a Little Miss MatchMaker. (The new character in the Little Miss series) :D

Pardon me with the all the show luo and pink stuffs. :X

Thanks Hui Fang for the SHOW LUO poster ! <3

Saw my invisible twin over there ? Say Hi. (:

Stalking ?

2010-02-08T21:15:00.000+08:00

Okay, I don't do that.

Let me start with a simple story that happens today:

Jievanda : Ma'am, what you drinking ah ?
Me : I know ! Coffee Strawberry, wait, no, is strawberry coffee !
Tzu Ying Ma'am : Whoa, How you know ? You stalker siaa !
Me : *cries* why everybody say I stalker ?! :(

Okay, before that, Weisin say I stalked her cause I was walking behind her. I'm like "怨望 ah" !

And...

Stalking is a term commonly used to refer to unwanted attention by individuals (and sometimes groups of people) to others. Stalking behaviors are related to harassment and intimidation. It may also be used to refer to criminal offences or civil wrongs that include conduct which some people consider to be stalking, such as those described in law as "harassment" or similar terms.

But ...

I didn't do anything similiar to above.

So ...

Conclusion : I'm not a stalker, I'm just being observant about everyone ! :D

2010-02-06T16:25:00.000+08:00

哭过就好了, 一切都过去了...

我们的命运早被安排,
又何苦去挣扎些什么?
慢慢地...
一切都明了了.
一切都过去了.
虽然惋惜,
可是那毕竟不是属于自己的..
放弃吧，
那是最后的选择。
你不属于她们，
她们也不属于你。
睡觉吧，
一觉醒来，
重新开始吧……

Shall just summarized everything that happens on Friday (Lazy do type for other days) :

♥ 3E3 is magic craze. Blame Darren for everything ! xP
♥ Went to help out at hall for the swearing in.
♥ CC + NP training. Rush here and there. :X
♥ Wasn't feeling well, but tried to be enthu.
♥ Can't play games outside due to the stupid ~~lightning risk alert~~ :(
♥ PT. Did alot of 'parallel-to-the-ground-with-hand' thingy while the others to push ups. (Diff style somemore ! xD)
♥ Play 'Where's the peanut ?', 'Policeman', 'bombing' with squad. Super fun and funny ! x)
♥ I owned ShanLeong Sir by breaking his submarine joke ! xD
♥ Bahalaji sir say he's going to cry as no one wants to be campcraft head ! LOL.
♥ ShanLeong Sir thought I was hiccupping when I was actually sniffing ! xD
♥ I stop laughing @ cats ! (rock)

所剩下的，只有过去的阴影。。。

If I sleep and never wakes up, please don't tell my mum about the pills.

2010-02-04T21:58:00.000+08:00

High emo content ~
'X' the window if you can't stand it.
Tyvm.

Really feel like sleeping and never wakes up.
I've been seriously thinking about overdosing into a coma.
I would love that.
Just nothingness.
No moving, touching, hurting.
No contact with anything or anyone exept pure sleep.
I feel as though im lost and wandering in a nightmare that I cant awake from.

I like to hit the shower and place a razor on my wrists,then trying hard to decide...
Am I brave enough for this ?
And I guess, I'm not.
I told myself to endure and become a rock.
Emotions are for little girls.
But I just can't make it.

I put on a fake smile,
and pretended nothing happened.
Cause I don't want anyone to worry.
Esp. my family...

I dont want people to pity me, I just want to be happy.
Is it that hard ?

I was certain i gave you up. But when i see your face, i miss you, AGAIN.

2010-01-31T15:22:00.000+08:00

I was certain i gave you up. But when i see your face, i miss you, AGAIN.

Hi peoples ! Miss me ? Or my blogpost ? LOL. Whatever. I'm crazy nowadays. :D Still as busy as the pass few weeks, but not as packed as before. As you can see, I've done up a new skin with photoshop. My FIRST skin done with it and I'm quite sastified myself. What do you think ? I love the brushes. Teehees. :B

Went 'pen shopping' with HuiFang yesterday and I bought a new notebook and a polka dot pencil case. Cheap + Nice + big. Worth it ! LOL. MRT-ed back to Bedok to meet my parents and went CNY goodie shopping. Bought loads of snacks and my dad bought NAUGHTY G. ROFL !

Salesman : Uncle, you want to try this drink ? *give testing to my dad* Now we got promotion, 4 can only $6.80. Inside got Ginko and ginseng. Very good for the body one. And the ingredients import from Korea one.

My dad : *nodnod* oohs, I see I see, *test the drink*

Salesman : Just now you drink that one is original one, *give another testing* now this one is green tea one.

My dad : *test the drink*

Salesman : Nice right? Your daughter also can drink. Help boost energy one. Then you know red bull right, got alcohol one, but this one horh, don't have, so very good.

*Salesman gave me the coke flavor testing.*

My dad : Okay lorh, take 4 bottle bah. All flavor take 1 can.

LOL.

I was ROFL-ing the whole time lahs.

My dad so funny ! xD

This week alot of epic moments lahs. Still rmb last Friday Me, mariam, weisin & JV went for BBT and they started making fun of me with the 'cat' thingy again. *inside joke and weisin go say KaiJie Sir is cat, then Kaijie sir was like 'Next parade you watch out ! I will turn you into a cat' ! ROFL-ing the whole week lahs ! I was laughing damn loudly outside the bubbletea shop and the auntie came out and ask me be more gentle. -.- I can't stop mahs, those cheeseballs *inside joke again keep making me laugh ! LOL. Andd Weisin ! You no need me treat you to cheeseballs, you have them ! :P

And parade + CC comp training this few days was fun !!!! Especially with Haziq sir ! He damn funny lahhs he ! Keep asking tiffany to shut up cause she was pestering him. LOL! Parade was funny as poor shanleong sir kept kena sabo-ed by us ! Damn fun lahs ! x))

And now for peeks time ! :D

Valentine's pocky !

Okay, this wasn't bought by me. LOL.

Spammed.

2010-01-27T21:07:00.000+08:00

xoxo.

Shall not blog in details today. Since I've MIA-ed for so long and so many things I have not blogged about this week. So mainly, I had F&N, Dry shoot, CCC and Maths proj. Upcoming will be the PE project. So I shall spam this post with photos and photos. Not really much photos though...

But before I let you see the photos, I shall elaborate about today which is damn funny ! Slacked and chatted during Miss Ho's physics class since she didn't come and it was damn bored. Laughed like mad the whole period lahs. Started off with Maths project at Bedok Library. Joined the tables up cause no space. Then the fking librarian scold us for joining the table and ask us return the chairs when the 2 chairs are SUPPOSE to be at our table. But whatever. The mood won't be spoilt by that bitch. So... continued with the project. Super high and I kept disturbing Gary by saying Hi to him x100. LOL. Then Huifang, yongwen and gary went off to Macs while me and Darren stayed at the library. Darren was damn bad to zoom into Gary's dad face and it turns out to be damn funny ! Was rofling the whole time there. Hahas. Went home and here I'm posting now !

My F&N practical - Quiche. I love the cheese combination.

(Oh, Talking about F&N, I got top 2nd for F&N test ! (rock) ! :D )

NPCC dry shoot - Girl's side.

From left to right - syahirah, weisin & nangai.

NPCC dry shoot - Guy's side. Lazy to name. :P

P.S : Jonathan looks like he's peeing. LOL.

My 0.5/3 main points done. LOL.

Oohs, Will be going for pool this saturday for our PE project. Any pool pros wanna help ? :D LOL!

And did I mention that I won't be replying tags anymore ? I will be random hopping and tagging since I'm v.busy nowadays. :X

Okayy. Byees.

Some times, crying is better then bottling up everything inside.

2010-01-24T21:51:00.000+08:00

Sorry for the long MIA. Feeling super moody nowadays, with the things happening nowadays...
This post isn't a happy post, so just shut up and read. if you want.
I need to chill down.
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Cheer up peeps !
1 more month to go ~
Add oil !

Some times, crying is better then bottling up everything inside.

F&N Practical.

2010-01-18T16:27:00.000+08:00

I love F&N practicals ! Did cheese biscuits today. Results turned out to be not bad. At least my friends say that they were nice. LOL. But the theory part is freaking sian. Almost slept in class. Practical's still the best ! :D

Gotten a haircut yesterday, & I look freaking weird now. But who cares. It will get long anyways. Unless people judge me by my looks. -.- But anyways, my hair will grow long in 1-2 weeks time. It grows freaking fast can. So currently, my hair is v.short.

Well, will be going to collect my specs tomorrow. Had an appointment with the optician to check out my degree. So will need me to be present to check whether the degree is right or not. I can't wear the correct degree, if not I cant see properly. So yeahs... will be skipping CCC training tmr as it clashes with my appointment.

Okay, short post to keep this blog alive.
Byees !

My cheese biscuits. All kena stolen. :(

1. What is more difficult for you, looking into someone's eyes when you are telling them how you feel, or looking into someone’s eyes when they are telling you how they feel?

Looking to someone's eyes when you are telling them ow you feel. I'm someone who doesnt know how to talk.

2. Think of the last time you were REALLY angry. WHY were you angry? Do you still feel the same way?

Because I lost my trust, my best friend. I'm slightly better now.

3. You are on a flight from Honolulu to Chicago nonstop. There is a fire in the back of the plane. You have enough time to make ONE phone call. Who do you call? What do you tell them?

I will send a massive message instead, saying bye.

4. You are at the doctor’s office and he has just informed you that you have approximately one month to live. Do you tell anyone/everyone you are going to die?

No. I dont want them to be sad, or treat me as some monsters.

What do you do with your remaining days?

Do something freaking crazy.

Would you be afraid?

No. Everyone have to die right ?

Tell everyone?

No. I dont want them to be sad, and I don't want those whom hates me to be happy earlier. LOL.

5. You can have one of the following two things. Which do you choose? Why? Love and Trust:

I don't care. I want both. LOL.

6. You are walking down the street on your way to work. There is a dog drowning in the canal on the side of the street. Your boss has told you if you are late even once more, you are fired. Do you take the time to save the dog’s life?

Like duhh I will save that dog. I will sack the boss before he sacks me. LOL.

8. Your friend confesses that he/she has feelings for you more then just friendship. He/she is falling in love with you. What do you do/say?:

Try to change topic ? LOL!

10. Are you the kind of friend that you would want to have as a friend?:

Ask the others, don't ask me.

11. Does love = sex?:

Obviously. No.

13. When was the last time you told someone HONESTLY how you felt regardless of how difficult it was for you to say? Who was it? What did you have to tell the person?:

I think I told it to Jievanda. I trust her ? :o

14. What would be (or what was) harder for you to tell a friend, you love them or that you do not love them?

I Love Them.

15. What do you think would be the hardest thing for you to give up? Why would it be hard to lose?:

Relationships. No matter is it love/friendship/family.

16. Excluding romantic love, when was the last time you told someone you loved them? Who were they to you?:

Friends. LOL.

18. Imagine: it is a dark night, you are alone, it is raining outside, you hear someone walking around outside your window. WHO do you wish was there with you?:

xxxxxxxx, cause I think he's caring ? LOL.

19. Would you give a homeless person CPR if they were dying? Why or Why not?:

Yes, if I know how.

21. You are holding onto your grandmother’s hand and the hand of a newborn that you do not know as they hang over the edge of a cliff. You have to let one go to save the other. Who do you let fall to their death? What was your reason for making the decision?

Newborn ? I dont know lahs. >.<22. Are you old fashioned?

Dont know.

23. When was the last time you were nice to someone and did NOT expect anything in return for it?:

Alot of times. :P

24. Which would you choose, true love with a guarantee of a broken heart, or never loved at all? Why?:

True Love With Broken Heart. At least I experienced it.

25. If you could do anything or wish anything, what would it be?:

I Hope ALL My Wishes Would Come True. :DD

Split personalities.

2010-01-16T12:22:00.000+08:00

I don't know why, but I'm blogging about MY split personalities. And you might not get to see it, cause it only appears to certain peeps... Hahas. Now the breakdown of Fannyy !

The violent side of Fannyy - I'll totally give you a 360 degree turn over and give you hell. You won't see the normal me. I assure you. LOL. Only shown to those whom I hated alot. So if you are not under my hate list, you won't see that side. I'll shout and all the !@#$%^&*() will come out. :)

The Cheery side of Fannyy - Full of laughters and jokes, somewhat crazy . LOL. Only shown to close friends or when I get really hyped up ! You will be thinking : "is this Fanny ? " LOL.

The Emo side of Fannyy - Easily observed when I'm being ignored or moody. - Maybe due to someone, something, or a particular incident that couldn't get off my mind. Not always shown. Only shown when being alone mostly.

The Shy side of Fannyy - I'll just smile and nod. And if you talk to me, I will reply in a tone that I dont know how to describe. Only shown to strangers or boys, due to the fact that I rarely hangs out with boys. LOL. So, I guess only boys will see this side of me only ? Hahas.

So after looking at how I classified my Split personalities, which side would you like to see ? LOL. I think most peeps will like the cheery or shy side of me. Hahas. LOL. But the main point is - I don't even know why I bother blogging about this. I guess I'm mad. But who cares. :D

I will be very very busy this 1 month, to prepare for CCC. Almost everyday must stay back. But endure ! But also means less time or no time for comp. :( But I don't care. CCC is much more important. But heys, although I'm only a Twine-In-Charge + help to hold the pole to allow it to stand, I'll do my best to help too.

Practicing for CCC. I can't peg, so I only can see the others peg. :(

A-maths lesson. I wasn't in A-Maths class. So I was slacking. Hahas ~

I was playing with meiqi's gingerbread escape. Super addictive ! LOL.

What I drew during class. The actual piece is much nicer. LOL.

Updates updates !

2010-01-13T19:54:00.000+08:00

I finally have some time to post. So I shall summarized everything :

- Had flag day last Saturday. 5 + hours leys.
- Chionged for $40 dollars. But I doubt there is. LOL.
- Found out alot of generous people ! Thanks to those who donated to me. 10 cents counts too !
- Thanks Nicholas for helping me to get my 1st donation from a kind kind lady who donated $1.00 at the bus stop. LOL.
- Makes me remember that ~~hotpinked-shirt lady~~ who ignored me when I asked for donation from her. -.- But whatever. Who evens need her donation dude.
- Got 1 ultra kind lady donated $10 in one shot ! Thanks alot ! :B
- School school and school until Tuesday.
- Tuesday, campcraft briefing.
- Learnt lashes for campcraft comp, must win ehs, BVSS. :D
- Homework, study, game + tmr NPCC parade. CC again ! :D
- Friday 9.25am got to go home early, thanks to the sec 4s. They got ultra good results !

And some photos to entertain you all :

The tin can filled with money ! You can't see it anyways. LOL.

The messy table filled with books. We're good kiddos, we study ! :P

School's busy...

2010-01-11T22:13:00.000+08:00

Busy Busy !
That's all I can say after school starts...

Some stuffs to clearify...

Q: Can I've your msn ?
A: Leave your email & I might add you. But kindly do not add me just to ask how to do this and do that, where to find this and find that. I will ignore you. And don't send me chain messages if you're in my list. Thanks.

Q: Can I take inspiration from your blog ?
A: No. I don't want a duplication of my skin/or something that looks similiar to mine. Not even if you credit. However, you can take basecodes and inspirations from those skins I submitted to my blogskin account. - Provided you credit it properly. Ask me if you want to know my blogskin account.

Q: Where do you find your materials/font etc. ?
A : Google it yourself. Basic - lovecandied.com.

I so wanna clearify this few questions as it's freaking irritating when people bugs you for stuffs. -.- So, read before you ask please. Thanks.

We don't owe you a living.

2010-01-07T20:00:00.000+08:00

So today was the second day of school, same as the first day, Boring~. And a super 'good' news - I've got nominated again to become the housekeeper. Which is to monitor the cleanliness of the class. Actually I got sabo-ed my Huifang who told Weichao to saboed me. But in the end, Huifang gotten the job together with me ! :B Most probably will be doing up the duty roster soon ~ But thinking on the positive side, I'll not need to do duty ! :P LOL.

So I'm now done with my duty roster. Shall end off with,

Byes.

First day at school...

2010-01-04T22:31:00.000+08:00

My first ever pixelled show luo's + my own pixel ! :B
I know it doesn't looks real lahs. LOL. But I like ! :P
I put it under my profile area ! :D
If you were to steal it, I will make sure you return me thrice of what you took from me ! >:( I'm serious.
And don't copy me make show luo's pixel. Thanks. Hate it when people do the same as me. >:(

So how was your 1st day at school ? I had a quite boring day, but my class was quite okay for me... Tomorrow will be the same as today, so hopefully everything goes well tomorrow.

A short update to keep this blog alive.
Nights !

Materialistic.

2010-01-03T16:59:00.000+08:00

Okay, so this post will be flooded with images of the things I want and most probably will be getting them within this month. Check back 1 month later to see whether I got my stuffs. LOL.So below are the top 3. :B And I've added my follower widget. Follow if you want. LOL. Not really targetting for alot of followers... May 10 will be my first target ? :B

Editted*
Goodluck to all PDS members ! No matter you're NPCC or NCC, just want to say goodluck ! :B Have already wished those in my MSN list and those who're online !

(P.S : Don't ask me where to get this and that. Thanks.)

The first thing I want will be - This super uber chio phone to replace my ~~LG KF350 icecream.~~

Most probably will be getting around Jan 30th or so... as my father's contract will finish by then.
But if I can't get this phone,
Will probably get W595 pink or a Touchphone.

The second thing I want will be - A kitty wallet. Chio also right ?

It's from a blogshop, but don't ask me which blogshop is it from. Thanks.

Hopefully my mum buys it for me so I wont have to fork out my savings ! :B

The last item for the month should be - 罗生门 ! Show's new album ! <3

Not preordering since I've CDrama vouchers, So should be buying from CDrama.

Hopefully Show's coming SG for autograph session !

So anyways, school's reopening tmr. Goodluck. Byes! :D

School's starting in 1 day time...

2010-01-02T23:47:00.000+08:00

Should I blog in Chinese ?

Lalas. I found my Chinese standard dropping. :/ ohmy~ I can't let this happen ! My A1 for Chinese ! 我的A1 ~ ~ ~ !!! But thinking in a positive way, my English kinda improved. 我不管啦! I shall blog in bilingual. Sorry if you can't read or something. You can translate my site using a translator. :)

So yesterday, went for Alvin and the Chipmunks 2. 超级可爱啦! But before that, I had a super unpleasant trip on the MRT ; There was this 2 girls around 16-20. Swinging around the pole and rubbing against the pole as if that was their poles. -.- Laughing loudly like nobody's around. My reaction was WTF? 简直是丢脸惨了... -.- So my mood totally was spoiled by this 2 bitches. But who cares ? Yadadoodadeeda and went home. I've gotten my Hello kitty strawberry lipbalm :) The smell is nice. Hahas.

Things I did this few days :
♥ Plurking now. - Super crazyy and I'm so hyped up !
♥ Just explaint about SFC to Jisong on MSN. LOL.
♥ Did a new skin - FANNYLOVESHOW ! :B
♥ Send Show Luo's images to my phonee ! <3
♥ I'm so in love with Theodore in Alvin and The Chipmunks !

Theodore 超可爱吧! :B

This is the chimpettes part in the movie. eleanor is f.cute lahs !

猜猜哪一个是小猪♥♥ ，哪个是小鬼♥ 啊?

Guess which is show♥♥ and which is alien♥ ?

Okay.
Byes. :)

Happy New Year ! '2010

2010-01-01T09:44:00.000+08:00

Happy New Year 2010 !

Well, I guess I'm one day late. LOL. But whatever. And there's a gift above for my friends and affilates. So go on and grab it. :) I've received gifts from cybermates too ! Check them out below !

Quiz stolen from Brenda ! :P

I confess that in 2009, I have...

(x) stayed single for the whole year. Wait, I'm only 14 ? LOL.
( ) made out in/on a car
( ) kissed in the snow
( ) celebrated Halloween
( ) kissed in the rain
( ) had your heart broken
( ) broke someone else’s heart
( ) had a stalker
( ) went over the minutes on your cell phone
( ) had a good relationship with someone
( ) someone questioned your sexual orientation
( ) gotten pregnant
( ) had an abortion
( ) had a relationship with someone you’ll never forget
( ) done something you’ve regretted
( ) lost faith in love
( ) kissed under a mistletoe

OTHER
(x) painted a picture For my art exam.
( ) wrote a poem
( ) ran a mile
( ) shopped at Hollister or Abercrombie and Fitch
(x) posted a blog Like duh, Posted alot of times alr.
(x) listened to music you couldn’t stand. yeahs, with my earplugs on. LOL
(x) went to a sleepover Class chalet @ downtown'09 ?
(x) went camping March camp ! ATC !
(x) threw a surprise party For JV, in school on her birthday.
(x) laughed till you cried While watching YLBFB. :)
( ) laughed till you peed in your pants
( ) visited a foreign country
(x) cut in a line of waiting people While waiting for bus. LOL.
(x) told someone you were busy when you weren’t. To some irritating chaps. LOL.
( ) partied to celebrate the new year
( ) cooked a disastrous meal
(x) lost something/someone important to you I lost my trust...

In 2009 I…
( ) broke a promise
(x) lied Like duh, even those guaikias will. :P
( ) went behind your parents back
( ) cried over a broken heart
( ) disappointed someone close
(x) hid a secret As you said, it's a secret...
(x) pretended to be happy Most of the times...
( ) slept under the stars
( ) kept your new years resolution
( ) forgot your new years resolution
( ) met someone who changed your life
(x) met one of your idols SHOW LUO SHOW LUO ! <3 So handsome lahs ! :P
(x) changed your outlook on life
( ) sat home all day doing nothing
( ) pretended to be sick
( ) left the country
( ) almost died
(x) given up something important to you yeahs, friendship.
( ) lost something expensive
( ) learned something new about yourself
( ) tried something you normally wouldn’t try and liked it
( ) made a change in your life
(x) found out who your true friends were Yeahs, indeed.
( ) met great people
( ) stayed up til sunrise
( ) cried over the silliest thing
( ) was never home on weekends
( ) got into a car accident
(x) had friends who were drifting away from you. yeahs, alot...
( ) had someone close to you die
( ) had a high cell phone bill
( ) spent most of your money on food
( ) had a fist fight
( ) went to the beach with your bf/gf
(x) saw a celebrity SHOW LUO, OMG HOTTIE ! :P
(x) gotten sick Like duh, who wont get sick ?
( ) liked more than 5 people at the same time
( ) became closer with a lot of people

Okay. those italics one is my speech. now for cybergifts ! :D

From Josephine !

From Brenda.

For those who gives me buttons, I've added to my site buttons section. Just hover over and you can see your name there. Thanks alot people ! :D And to those who wish me goodluck and tell me I'll pass my CPL test, Thanks loads ! <3 :D

Going out for Alvin & the Chipmunks later on.
Byes. :)

The final day...

2009-12-30T19:37:00.000+08:00

Hey you, marie rocks. LOL.

The day has arrive...
30 December 2009 - CPL test.

Hello readers, Sorry for not posting due to my CPL test. Guess how was my test ? I guess it was okay for me. But I think I'll die at the practical part... I'm confident for my Theory though... All the MCQs answers are all 'Bs', I'm clever enough to wrote all 'Bs' for my answers. Actually, I changed some answers as I remembered last year the answers were all 'As'. So yeahs, decided to mess around with my luck. And I'm lucky enough. :)

Had my practical test next. I wasn't really nervous during the starting. But getting more and more nervous after that. So, I got 'belok' for MOI. So, I was struggling to teach and command as I can't differentiate the difference from my left & right and their left & right. So I keep kiri-ing kenan-ing wrong direction. In the end, guess what ?!

I ended up beloking them to the garbage bin. LOL.

Sorry guys ! Thanks for not throwing me into the garbage bin. LOL. So, after that, changed and went down to see the PDS performance. It's super nice canzxc. But got scared a few times when Shanleong sir suddenly kneel down to do some PDS moves. Super scared the rifle poke me. With huifang LOL. So we was like omggomgg all the way. Keep moving back due to Huifang's phobia after being hit by a rifle on the lips. Claps for the PDS members ! :D

Went to Mac after that and I went home earlier. always the one... Had a personal K-Box session at home. Super shiok uhs, no one snatch mic with me. :P Somemore no need pay. LOL. Was so addicted to 表白 and I kept repeating that song. Hahas. Stopped singing and watched YLBFB. As nice as always. :)

If you've realised, I add in the 'I support' and 'He's mine' section. Don't you ever copy ! >:( And don't you ever dare steal away those images. I'll definately kill you for that. And not directing to anyone, Please, stop asking me about what font I use, how I do this do that, what software I use. It's like I won't tell you a single shyt. Not that I'm selfish or whatever. I only share it with close friends. :) As you know, people copy copy & copy. LOL. Even songs also want copy lehs, no originality mehs ? I mean RL too. And if you aren't happy with me or something, simply just add me on msn @ fannyloveshow@hotmail.com and I will deal it with you, only timid dogs spam. :)

Okay, before I go,
some awards :

I'm done with this post.
Byes. :)

Let's countdown.

2009-12-26T23:17:00.000+08:00

Thanks Amelia for this wonderful award ! :D

Wow, can believe 2010 is coming so soon ~ Alas, and ...

30 Dec - CPL test.
The big day, which determines whether you get your rank, or not.
Wish me goodluck peoples.

Andd 5 more days to countdown to 2010...

Thanks to Abel for this gift ! :D

Thanks to Sophia for this gift ! :D

Just some ~~random craps~~ to update since I've nothing to do and I insisted that I MUST online. LOL ~ Went on for shopping during this long holidays and will update together with pictures with the things I buy. I bought some Hello Kitty stuffs. Happy and sastisfied because it wasn't bought with my own money. LOL. I gotten a pair of cute graffiti shoes too. With teddies and bunnies ! Hahas. It's for CNY anyways. LOL. That's why I love CNY. New clothings + Moneyy ! LOL.

Finished 海派甜心 EP 8 in the noon. Looking forward to 海派 EP 9 ! And if you watched the NG part at the last part of EP 8, you will see how pro are they when they shoot the helicopter scene. Super real cann. And funny. Hahas.

I stole this from Melly's blog. :P

1. what are three ways to win your heart?
♥ Humour. (:
♥ 大男人主义. I'mma so weird! LOL.
♥ 看得顺眼 jiu okay le. LOL!

2. do you like lightning?
♥ No. They freak me out sometimes.

　3. have you ever cut someone else’s hair?
♥ Nope, I only cut my fringe once. LOL.

4. last person you said ‘i hate you’ to?
♥ Never said it before. I think, but it's kept in my heart. :P

5. rain or sunshine?
♥ Half-Half bahs.

6. last stupid thing you said to anyone?
♥ I'm always saying stupid things. :P LOL!

7. biggest turn off?
- You mean... ?

8. fave movie?
♥ 2012. It was a WOW.

9. would you date someone who smokes?
♥ NO WAY. I hate smokers. :/

10. would you date someone who was addicted to drugs?
♥ EVEN MORE NO WAY like duhh. -.-

11. what’s your biggest turn on, physically?
♥ I dunno.

12. would you have sex w. someone you weren’t dating?
♥ Like NO duhh. -.-

13. have you ever missed someone and regretted breaking up with them?
♥ Nahs, I was single from the day I was born.

14. have you ever dated someone more than once?
♥ Nahs. See answer for 13. LOL.

15. if you could go on ONE DATE with any celebrity, who would it be?
♥ SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥ ! LOL.

16. what’s your relationship status?
♥ Single.

17. do you like cuddling?
♥ Okay lahs, I love being hugged and hugging people. And JV, stop strangling me ! LOL.

18. do you hold grudges?
♥ Yeahh, I don't like to owe people stuffs, you give me a slap, I'll return you one one day. :)

19. do you regret dating anyone?
♥ Refer the Question 13.

20. hugger or kisser?
♥ Both. :P

21. missing someone?
♥ yes.

22. most important lesson you’ve learned from your exes?
♥ No ex lahs. LOL.

23. are you happier single or in a relationship?
♥ Half-Half ? I dont know. LOL.

24. how important are looks?
♥ Okay okay lahs, I 看得顺眼jiu okay lorhs, but also cannot too ugly lahs. :X

25. would you rather date someone who is SUPER HOT or someone who is nice?
♥ Nice duhh! :D

26. do you stay friends w/ the people you’ve dated?
♥ Depends.

27. would you fight over someone you wanted to be with?
♥ Depends. :o

28. do you kiss on the 1st date?
♥ No. It's like kissing a stranger ? LOL.

29. if someone cheated on you, would you take them back if you really loved them?
♥ NO, I will thing of 101 ways to make him 断子绝孙 ! LOL. No lahs, Kidding. :P

30. some random girl comes up to you and says “who the hell are you”? What do you say back?
♥ 我你祖母啦. LOL!

31. are you spoiled?
♥ 20%. LOL!

32. name three things you would not tolerate in a relationship?

♥ Cheating on me.
♥ Flirting with other girls.
♥ Affairs with other girls. I'll make him !&*&@*(^&%#)_(&!

33. which one of your friends do you think would make a good prostitute?
♥ LOL! None.

34. did you miss anyone today?
♥ Yes.

35. last person to see you cry?
♥ Should be Jievanda and Weisin, over some problems in the toilet beside my classroom.

36. Who/what made you cry?
♥ I don't wanna say, but it's about Trust.

37. are you a forgiving person?
♥ I'm a soft-hearted person, but I normally will try to divert the attention when someone ask me to forgive them...

38. would you ever share a girl/boyfriend with your best friend?
♥ Obviously NO.

39. i’ve come to realize the last person who gave me a hug…
♥ Jievanda, but she's like strangling instead of hugging me. DURING NPCC Parade when we are playing captain ball match. LOL.

40. are most of your friends guys or girls?
♥ Girls.

41. how long does it take you to get ready to go out ?
♥ 15 minutes.

42. how many people do you know of named Adam ?
♥ 1.

43. are any of your friends cheerleaders ?
♥ Nope.

44. what was the last thing you burnt ?
♥ My pet society food. LOL!

45. what is your full name?
♥ Fanny kwek. :D

46 what color is the bra you have on now ?
♥ What da hell ?

47. do you straighten your hair every day?
♥ I don't own a hair straightener.

48. do you worry about the size of your boobs?
♥ Sick, but no. LOL.

49. are you the typical girl who’s addicted to gossip?
♥ Probably ?

50. what are your favorite girly magazines?
♥ ViVi Mag, Ohmygee, damn nice canzxc !

51. did you ever spend all day/night getting pretty for a guy?
♥ Maybe ?

52. did you ever cry during a romantic movie?
♥ Maybe ? If it's a sad ending.

53. would you leave the house without makeup on?
♥ Yes. I don't do makeups anyways.

54. what’s the biggest turn on about guys?
♥ Their humour! :)

55. are you a girly-girl, tomboy, or in the middle?
♥ Girly probably ? I love Pink and Hello kitty ! LOL.

56. is pink truly the best color in the entire universe?
♥ OMG. YES LIKE DUH !

57. what’s the most expensive piece of clothing you own?
♥ Errr .. I dont know.

58. what color do you absolutely despise?
♥ I love colors. :D

59. have you ever stole?
♥ Nope. I'm a good girl. :D

60. have you set your hair on fire?
♥ I'm perfectly normal, so NO.

61. do you wear sweat pants?
♥ Nopee.

62. do you know anyone who has lost their virginity?
♥ Those who are married and have childs. LOL.

63. have you ever ran into a door because you didn’t see it?
♥ Nope, but I ran into a wall often. LOL.

64. doesn’t 50 Cent suck?
♥ No way, It's still monehh !

65. do you like hugs and kisses(xoxo :) )?
♥ Ok lahs.

66. do you act gangster?
♥ I'mma good girl. :P Even if I were to act, also play play one lah. Hahas !

67. ever made a prank phone call?
♥ GOT! Alot of time lahs, super funny. Hahas !

68. last kiss?
♥ My teddy.

69. what bill do you hate paying most?
♥ I don't pay, my parents does. :P

70. where was the last place you had a romantic dinner?
♥ Havent had one.

71. what did you want to be when you were growing up?
♥ DJ, singer, ladyboss. :P

72. favorite NON sexual thing to do at night with a guy?
♥ Going to a movie ? LOL.

73. when did you first start feeling older?
♥ LOL. I don't feel old as people always call me childish. :P

74. favorite guilty pleasure?
♥ NONE?

75. what famous person(s) would you like to have dinner with?
♥ SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO ♥♥♥! :D

76. what famous person would you like to date?
♥ SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO SHOW LUO ♥♥♥! :D

78. what do you hate about your school?
♥ The Hair rules - Fringe cannot touch eyebrowns. -.-

79. last person whose bed you laid on besides your own?
♥ Parent's bed.

80. have you lost a friend recently?
♥ Yeahhs. :X

81. ever have a sleepover with the opposite sex?
♥ No. Even if I were invited to one, I won't go unless it's all girls + 1 boy. LOL.

82. do you use smiley faces on the computer a lot?
♥ Yeahs ! LOL. So cute :P

83. is it easier to forgive, or to forget?
♥ Forgive, forgetting is v.hard.

84. do you give out second chances too easily?
♥ Yes, but I learnt not too.

85. is your best friend pretty?
♥ Wow, I've one ? :o

86. is it awkward when you run into your exes?
♥ Depends.

87. have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
♥ Nahs.

88. can you make yourself cry?
♥ Yes. LOL.

89. is your life simple or complicated?
♥ Complicated.

90. are you easily confused?
♥ Quite, especailly in math questions. Algebra. -.-

92. are you taller than 5′4″?
♥ Sir, your measurements are unreadable by me. LOL.

93. have you ever liked someone who treated you like crap?
♥ NOWAY. I'll kill that person first. LOL.

94. is your current hair color mostly your natural hair color?
♥ Yeah, it's black.

95. does everything really happen for a reason?
♥ Yes.

Okay, I took like 40 minutes to finish that freaking long quiz ? LOL. Just wasted 40 minutes of my life on that. :X And before I go, I shall end off with this :

I wonder which idiot will use this machine when you could just simply purchase toilet rolls outside simply at retailing supermarkets.

It's Christmas ' 09! :D

2009-12-23T22:54:00.000+08:00

It's 12am now !Merry Christmas! :D Received some gifts from cyberfriends :

Thanks to Melissa for the cute banner ! :D

Thanks to Lisa for the pinky banner ! :D

Thanks to Isabel for the simple-but-loved banner ! :D

Thanks to Mavis for this chio banner ! :D

Thanks to Agnes for this sweet banner ! :D

Received some awards too.

From Shimin's

From Ashlynn's

From Isabel's

Off to sleep now. Byes ! :D

Dalang, Dalang, Dalang Dalang Dalang Dalang ~ PINKBOB!

2009-12-23T22:36:00.000+08:00

这个冬天，是你的笑容让我为暖起来...

Heyos !
Today was fun !
I shall narrate from the start!

It all start like this,
Was broken into groups mixed with Sec 1s + 2s. So... we were under Hazirah Maam. Group discussion about our Group name and Of course,Pink Panther came to my mind ! :P But Shakul disagree and said he want spongebob instead. So... we decided on PinkBob in the end. Which means Pink Panther + Spongebob.

The next station...
The next station was our first station, and it was the Campcraft section. Was told to build structures. Was helping around as I don't know how to tie those lashings. But in the end, the structure still fail to stand. But nevermind, the bonding was still there although not much. (:

The 2nd station...
Was PT. Was instructed to do 100 crunches + 100 pushups + 10 rounds around the school. Of course, share among the group lahs, if not will die ehs. so... I did 1 round round the school + buddha clap. Crystal Maam kept hanging the first aid kid on my hands until I keep screaming here & there. LOL. Proceed on to make our group cheer. TOTALLY ROCK TO THE CORE MANXZXZXZX! Dalang, Dalang, Dalang Dalang Dalang Dalang ~ PINKBOB! SWAY ! We rock cause the CLs totally love our group cheer ! :P

The 3rd station ...
Was Sing-along. Shan Leong Sir teached us how to dance. So... We're the honoured group which he teached. LOL! He keep asking us to do our group cheer after we do it once. That's why I say we rock ! :P Not bhb okayy ! LOL. Learned 'Flea Fly Drills' + 'Flea Fly Soft Drinks' from Tzu Ying maam.
Currently addicted to them !

The last station ...
Was games ! But before that, we had a PK of cheers. But heyys ! PINKBOB still rocks ! LOL. and 1234 ! inside joke Hahas ! Captained ball with the other groups and we didn't win or lose, it was a tie. :)

Aiyaa, it was super fun today cann !
Pinkbob rocks to the core ! :D

And oohs, before I forgot :

Show Luo's 7th new album "罗生门" will be officially out on 15 Jan.

You can start preorder on Dec 22 2009 alr ! :D

Ohmygee ! I love his New Hairstyle !

I'm so gonna preorder it ! <3

Show Luo is MINE ! <3 :P

Okay, I'm a fangirl, so what ?!

LOL.

Some peeks to entertain you all :

The magazines I bought. (: ViVi Mag rocks ! I'mma Taurus !

Those rainbow 'Tangyuans'. I love the colors ! But sadly, it taste awful. LOL!

Joined Jolene's contest.

P.S : 这个冬天，是你的笑容让我温暖起来...

"My life would be much better without YOU and this is SERIOUS ."

2009-12-21T23:12:00.000+08:00

"My life would be much better without YOU and this is SERIOUS ."

The above quote was from Hester's. Well, totally true. I feel so free now. LOL! Okay so anyways, Didn't go for NPCC due to Fever + Flu. But it's better now. Anyways, Did singing on Yaoyao's 放弃你. I know my singing sucks but keep your nasty comments to yourself. Constructive comments are welcomed ! Please comment on the youtube page if you have a youtube account. Or tag @ my tagboard if you don't have one. Your comments are strongly appreciated ! :D

Will be changing skin soon ~
Buais!

Baton Drills ! :>

2009-12-18T14:27:00.001+08:00

I'm finally posting after abandoning my blog for so many days. So... Shall post about yesterday... Started raining early in the morning. So PT-ed in the Indoor sports Hall. Was super 'Paiseh' as I was told to do Buddha Clap solo as I can't do pushups as well as crunches. So... I was in the formation of this :

Probably you won't feel Paiseh, but for me it was. Cause everyone was on the floor while you while standing up doing like a 'Addition' Sign. LOL!

Okay, that was the first part.

Second part was a game call 'Duck & Goose'. I didn't expect I got to play but when this sec 1 guy suddenly tap me and I thought I'm going to die. But he suddenly stop and sit at the wrong place so I faster tap and return to my seat. Lucky me ! LOL! And I found out that running in circles is very hard ! LOL.

Third Part was Drills. Got to learn Baton Drills. Baton Drills is nice luhs ! But I hate putting in and getting out the Batons. Cause only got 8 counts are very hard to put back. All depends on your sense of touch. But... I still LOVE Baton drills. As compared to other drills So after that, Debrief and went for Mac. Went home after that.

Some Banners I did.

Twinneh's room. :)

My room. :)

Okay. Buais. <3

The Pink Show Award - Results.

2009-12-15T14:50:00.000+08:00

Joined Isabel's contest. (:

Went out with Jasmine yesterday. Actually only went for neoprints the whole trip. Trained to Bugis and went for 1 of the machines there. The machine is like damn cool luhs, can dye hair ! Hahas. So Jasmine went to dyed my hair red which makes me looks like a "PaiKia". LOL. Went to FairyTale and we each bought a hairband. Of course, I bought the one with a big pink polka dots ribbon. Hahas ! Then proceed on to Pasir Ris for another neoprint sessions.

Guess what ?!

We tried all the machines in the end ! About 4 machines there. Not really sastisfied with the products as the quality isn't as good as those at Bugis, which is more expensive. Expensive stuffs are good in quality. Hahas. Bused back to Bedok for late lunch. Had KFC and was joking around. Made Jasmine lost her appetite and in the end, I finish her fries for her. LOL. Hahas.

Homed with a big hole in my pocket. Spent all the money on neoprints. But I didn't regret it. Only regretted on the first machine used at Pasir Ris. Cheap but suckish. -.- So, I strongly encourage you to go to Pretty in Tokyo @ Bugis instead. However, the female staffs there has a black face. -.-

The most sastisfied one. Taken at Bugis, can you see my "dyed" hair ?

Neoprints taken @ the best machine at Pasir Ris.

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Well, I didn't followed the scedule as I wanted the results to come out early so I could have time to prepare for my NPCC CPL test. Wish me goodluck. Hahas.

Here's the result :
Just click on image to get the banner !

And the top 3 winners are :

And for those who didn't win, try harder next time ! you all are great ! :

Congrats to those winners ! ^^

Okay. Here's the award. There was a close fight for some of the awards, but I just picked one according to me, myself. So... sorry if you think my awards are ugly. LOL.

Buais. <3

What's wrong ? -.-

2009-12-13T12:29:00.000+08:00

You can't see the pain I feel...

Serious bored and I've nothing to do. Just did a quiz on "which 海派甜心 character are you? on facebook and see the image below for my result. :) ~~Just feeling damn pissed off now. So I covered my ranting posts. You can go ahead and read my rants if you're feeling bored or have nothing to do.~~ LOL. Deleted my rants as I've cooled down nao ! :D Going out with Jasmine tmr. Hopefully Jiayi can go too !

The quiz I did on facebook. SHOW LUO♥ !

Join 'The Pink Show Award' ! Refer to previous post for more information or click here.

The Pink Show Award.

2009-12-13T00:52:00.000+08:00

Yes, Finally I've the motivation to brush up a contest.
Read on for more details ~

Awards are given accordingly to :
Top 3 (1st , 2nd and 3rd) (Results out)
Most creative blog. x2 (Results out)
Most original blog. x2 (Results out)
Most simplicity blog. x2 (Results out)
Most kawaii blog. x2 (Results out)
Most pinkish blog. x2 (Results out)
Neatest blog. x2 (Results out)
Best blog post. x2 (Results out)
Best photography blog. x2 Meaning your photo taking skills/photos. (results out)
Best seasonal blog. x2. *new*! (Results out)
Merits. x3 (Results out)

** All blogs will be judge on all categories and there will only be 2 winners per category. (Meaning there's no need to choose which categories you want.)

Terms & Cond.
- Please put up TPSA banner somewhere in your blog. Participants will be kicked out of the contest if the banner could not be found on your blog.

- Please repost @ least once about this contest.

Schedule :
Joining of contest : 13 dec - 14 dec.
Judging of contest : 15 dec - 20 dec.
Results out on : 21 dec - 22 dec.

Participants : (FULL!, Maximum of 25 participants)
Brenda
Audrey
Agnes
Cherrie
Amelia
Ashlynn
Helena
Angeli
WanChing
Darel
XinYing
Mabel
Hester
Amirah
ShiinYin
Abel
A.K
Xiaoyan
ShiMin
Angeline
Amabel
Grace
Isabel
Ariel
Jamie

Fanny's

一個人流浪;

曾經，希望自己是啞巴，就好了。

當個啞巴會不會比較好...

When one is better than 2. :)

Love me Love my Teddy Bear;

Shopping is the best cure. :B

活着为什么那么累？

Boredom.

Life without choice;

回到原点;

Fat? So what?!

痛到麻木也好;

100th. :D

我就像一个小丑.

JMWFJ :D

安静 沉默 无奈

Tic Tac toe~

I (heart) :)

Blogshopping ! (rock) :D LOL.

Killer.

生命中最重要的东西;

Tired of caring, tired of loving, tired of waiting, tired of the deafening silence…

好像是我变了;

If you want to change your life, change your mind.

Unriddle.

真的不想；

Happy Birthday 罗小祥！

我累了！可以休息了吗？

只不過是天真的以為;

小丑的泪。

最后的风度;

I acted like it did'nt bother me, but really, I think about it all the time.

Meeh. Cake session/STC!

我不配;

Filming = great fun!

Bimbotic.

I'm your biggest fan.

The friendship that can cease has never been real.

Ohh whatever.

就讓我僞裝, 我嘴角不屑;

我累了。

Shooting ROCKS ! :B

舞法舞天演唱会好看惨了! (Althou i neh watch xP)

他们说，生日，应该是快乐的。

FML. Everything's screwed. :X

Fanny's autobiography!

EL + CL paper 1.

画虎画皮难画骨，知人知面不知心... ;

Birthday countdown!

Enchanting Moments 2010.

Shopping is the best cure.

gonecase.

Chemistry.

D:

Yesterday, today & tomorrow.

Skin Changed, Link Changed.

If loving you was a crime...

像是刺猬般防范，伪装的勇敢，不轻易让你看穿...

Be strong because things will get better.

Project meet up & Dinner with Josh.

March Camp 2010.

Camp ! :D

Clear my wardrobe!

Icon Batch 1 - Sugar, Spice & everthing nice. (9 icons)

In your face. (:

CMI ! :(

小黑，小白，小猪 ！

Back.

Stalking ?

If I sleep and never wakes up, please don't tell my mum about the pills.

I was certain i gave you up. But when i see your face, i miss you, AGAIN.

Spammed.

Some times, crying is better then bottling up everything inside.

F&N Practical.

Split personalities.

Updates updates !

School's busy...

We don't owe you a living.

First day at school...

安静　沉默　无奈

小黑，小白，小猪！